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Thursday December 31, 2009
"What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from."
Today I am grateful for life, with all of its surprises.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday December 30, 2009
The tree has come down and slowly the house is returning to normal...except the girls bedrooms. Their floors are covered with Christmas gifts. I like to let them have at least a week before we gradually start finding homes for everything.
Today I am grateful for spirited children.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday December 29, 2009
I wasn't kidding when I said I had lost concept of dates and time. The days pass and I rarely know the date. It wasn't until mid-morning that I realized I had missed my appointment with my gastroenterologist IN NORTH CAROLINA, and my EGD and colonoscopy scheduled for tomorrow morning. I'll have to reschedule in a few weeks.
Today I am grateful for cozy days inside.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday December 28, 2009
Like many of you, my thoughts move to the New Year approaching. Although I don't make resolutions, I do have lots of aspirations, prayers and wishes for the year to come.
Today I am grateful for Big Daddy Dirt Pile.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday December 27, 2009
Today's Church services were special ones. Paul Cornelius, one of our Church members, presented his "Days of Noah" ministry, and we had the Christmas Play tonight (since last week was snowed out). Both of my girls participated and I am proud of them for eagerly volunteering.
Today I am grateful for family breakfast at Mom's.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday December 25, 2009
Luke 2:11 "For unto you is born this day in the city of David a Saviour, which is Christ the Lord."
JESUS is the real reason for the season. We need to always make Him the priority, as we enjoy family time, gifts, and Santa fun with the children.
Today I am grateful for the birth of baby Jesus.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday December 24, 2009
Christmas Eve. Where did time go? The girls decorated their sacks (each year they draw more on them, it's so fun to watch their talent progress) and made their ornaments. It's our tradition--since the year of their births, we have handcrafted an ornament together. One set is to keep here and later pass down to their families, and one set is given to my mom. This year's theme was a cross, hand decorated and hangtags with 'Happy Birthday Jesus' written on them.
Today I am grateful for family togetherness.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday December 23, 2009
Exhausted, but done! We went out today with my list in hand and knocked out the remaining shopping left to do. Not a moment too soon, huh? Surprisingly, the stores were nowhere near as crowded as I expected them to be. There were minimal waits, if any, at the mall itself.
Today I am grateful for completed tasks.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday December 22, 2009
The storm has caused delays with mail deliveries, and I'm getting a bit concerned about some of the girls gifts arriving on time. The only shopping I've done so far has been online. Tomorrow I will have to go out and finish off my list. It's getting close!
Today I am grateful for handmade gifts.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday December 21, 2009
The town has called for emergency vehicles only to be on the roads, and several streets are closed. Unfortunately, Frank still had to work a full day. I'm inside, building cozy fires.
Today I am grateful for my fireplace.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday December 20, 2009
Our Church services were cancelled today because of the amount of snow everywhere. In addition, the roads were very slick, with accidents reported everywhere!
Today I am grateful for a day with Frank home with us.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday December 19, 2009
Wow, an easy ten to twelve inches of snow on the ground! The girls went out sledding, but the snow was so deep it was hard for them to even walk up the hill! This is Bailey's first winter and his first "real" snow. He has been bouncing around in it like a 70+ pound rabbit, biting at it, even catching snowballs from the girls. It was so fun to watch!
Today I am grateful for an indoor snow day.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday December 18, 2009
The snow started to fall around lunch time, and it started piling up quickly. The most recent forecast says 8-12" for us! It's definitely the largest snow we've seen in a very long time!
Today I am grateful for electricity during a snow storm.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday December 17, 2009
Hannah had an eye exam a couple of weeks ago and discovered she needed glasses. (She had started to mention not being able to see the clock on the microwave, and a few other things in the distance) She picked out some adorable pink frames, and Frank picked them up today. Hannah didn't know they had come in and I called her into the living room and just handed her the case. It
wasn't until she looked inside that she realized what was in there. It was amazing to see her so excited and being able to see clearly.
Today I am grateful for wonderfully unique daughters.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday December 15, 2009
Any shopping that's been done for Christmas has been online, this week. I love Free Shipping! I'm over half way there now.
I must admit that I didn't send Christmas cards this year. I'm still trying to figure out how September became December so fast.
Today I am grateful for FedEx.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday December 14, 2009 Hannah-ism: Hannah had been in bed about twenty minutes when she called out.
Hannah: "Daddy, I need to tell you something."
Frank: "It can wait until the morning, you need to get some sleep."
Hannah: "But it's about the Roman Empire!!"
Today I am grateful for Kelle.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday December 12, 2009
"Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude."
Today I am grateful for quiet time before bed.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday December 11, 2009
The temps were a bit brisk today, but we still went out to stroll around a few shops. It was fun to walk around holding hands, with "not a care in the world".
Today I am grateful for purple markers.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday December 7, 2009
I still have more on my list than there are hours in the day. Christmas is less than three weeks away, and nothing has been purchased,
wrapped, or unpacked. It just doesn't feel like the holidays yet!
Today I am grateful for a relaxing cup of tea.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday December 6, 2009
The sun was out today, and most of the snow is has melted. Now that we've had a taste of winter, I'm ready for more snow....and more fires!
Today I am grateful for down pillows.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday December 5, 2009
We ended up with at least five inches of snow today. The girls played outside riding sleds, making snowmen and snow angels.
They were finally forced to come in, because they'd stayed out almost all day!
Today I am grateful for a blanket of snow.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday December 4, 2009
Another morning out with Hannah. I needed some blood work, and she had an appointment with the eye doctor. She had started squinting and couldn't read the time on the microwave, etc. Then she said she couldn't see the board well at school, because she was near
the back. We found out today that she does need glasses, full time. Hannah picked out a light pink rectangular shape metal frame, and
she really seemed to like them.
Today I am grateful for Dr. Cline.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday December 3, 2009
I had a doctor's appointment and Hannah was scheduled for her H1N1 booster today (her age determined the need for two injections).
I kept her out of school, and we had some fun during the appointments. I always enjoy that special time where
I can be with the girls one on one.
Today I am grateful for fun in the car with Hannah.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday December 2, 2009
"What is it that affectionate parents require of their children; for all their care, anxiety, and toil on their accounts? Only that they would be wise and virtuous, benevolent and kind."
Today I am grateful for mid-term grades.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday December 1, 2009
Happy Birthday, Beav!
It's amazing to me that I was a senior when you were born...people mistook you for my child rather than my brother.
Here it is twenty-eight years later, you are a grown man and we are the best of friends as well as siblings. May your dreams
come true. I believe in you!
Today I am grateful for a brother with passion.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday November 30, 2009
Am I the only one who is wondering how the holidays are upon us? 2009 seems not much more than a blur in so many ways...
highlighted by extreme "moments", both happy and sad. I am longing for a day to just sit and breathe.
Today I am grateful for my parents marriage, forty-seven years ago today.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday November 28, 2009
Today was a stay at home day, and I loved it. Other than letting Bailey out, I didn't even stick my head outside. I've had a fire
going since around 8:30 this morning...I love to watch the flames dance.
Today I am grateful for a deadline free day.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday November 27, 2009
We awoke to a thin blanket of white snow on the ground. It was a perfect day to relax with family, and I spent most of my
day next door, at Mom & Dad's house.
Today I am grateful for having my entire family at Mom & Dad's house on this holiday.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday November 12, 2009
As many of you know, I have been writing/blogging for several years now, every single day. For the first time, I find myself overwhelmed to a point that I have been unable to return daily to this site. Please bear with me. I will return in two weeks...on Thanksgiving Day. I am grateful for your support, and it was important to be able to take a break in order to let life settle a bit.
Today I am grateful for building the first fire of the season.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday October 24, 2009
I certainly intended to be back online two weeks ago. Unfortunately, I came home to the real world, but in overdrive. Mail
was stacked ten inches high, the girls soccer season had begun, and both of them have been sick at different times. I didn't even unpack until I was home for about ten days...and that's just the beginning!
Today I am grateful for fall leaves.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday September 26, 2009
I'll be leaving tomorrow for Charlotte then heading on down to New Orleans for a few days. I hope to get some rest and relaxation in! I'll be home October 7, and will update as soon as I get settled back in!
Today I am grateful for Venus' music.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday September 22, 2009
With not a lot of notice, it looks like I will have the opportunity to return to New Orleans for a few days. I was there pre-Katrina, and I'm looking forward to going back.
Today I am grateful for plans coming together.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday September 21, 2009
My new glasses came in, and the lenses are so much better. By evening I felt a little foggy, but I'm not seeing as much
distortion as I was with the first attempt.
Today I am grateful for Cheryl.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday September 19, 2009
"You must train your intuition -- you must trust the small voice inside you which tells you exactly what to say, what to decide."
Today I am grateful for a moment of silence.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday September 17, 2009
I had to have some routine blood work and testing today. While I was there, I had my entire medical history printed. Although I had many reports, etc., I had never picked up "everything". It's something I've been wanting to do for a long time.
Today I am grateful for Dr. Asbury's staff.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday September 15, 2009
I'm going to have to go back and have my new glasses checked. I've given the bifocals more than enough time, and I still can't see at reading distance. Between moving my head so much (causing my neck pain to flare up) and the daily headaches it's just a bit much!
Today I am grateful for friendly voices on the phone.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday September 13, 2009
"We were not created to be eaten by anxiety, but to walk erect, free, unafraid in a world where there is work to do, truth to seek, love to give and win."
Today I am grateful for encouraging news.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday September 9, 2009
I had an appointment scheduled for today in Bristol. I decided to take myself, rather than depend on Dad to take me down. Since the girls were in school, I wanted to challenge myself on my abilities. Although I hit a torrential downpour, missed an exit, and got backed up behind an automobile accident for a very long time, I survived the trip. I was extremely fatigued when I finally made it home and my body ached. BUT I DID IT.
Today I am grateful for a successful trip alone.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday September 8, 2009
After a wonderful trip, we are home and settling in. I felt a bit of dizziness today, but nothing extreme based on what I had done on the water yesterday. My neck is hurting, but that's from dozing on the car ride home last night. I'm tired, but overall I feel pretty good. I'm still smiling at the fun we had!
Today I am grateful for pictures.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday September 7, 2009
When we visited last month, I really focused on trying to acclimate myself to the moving water and the dock. I had successfully ridden the pontoon on that trip without any of my vertigo issues causing problems.
Today I decided to ride the speedboat. I trusted Dean, and if I felt dizzy, I knew he would immediately bring me back to land. I let him drive faster and faster. It ended up being so fun, and I wasn't dizzy! Later as I kept looking at the tube, I decided I wanted to give it a shot. I can swim, so if I got dumped (plus wearing a life jacket) I wasn't worried...I just wasn't so sure if that motion would bother me. It was the time of my life, I laughed and screamed the entire trip. To Dean's surprise, I asked if I could ride it again! On the way back to the house, I gladly got behind the wheel when he offered to let me drive. I just wanted him to point me in the right direction, as I wasn't certain how to approach the waves, let alone sailboats and jet skis. Frank and the girls were with us, and when I hit full throttle Hannah screamed "Mommy's crazy!!" Dean & I laughed like we did when we were kids and I can honestly say that I haven't had that much fun, or felt so free, in the eight and a half years since my diagnosis.
My love to you Dean, Marilee, and Kristen--thanks for making my world a bit larger this weekend. These are memories for a lifetime.
Today I am grateful for laughter with Dean.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday September 6, 2009
We got to Dean & Marilee's house around 6:30 last night. Not long after we arrived, Dean took off to the grocery store with the girls for "goodies", after a quick walk down the dock to see not just the pontoon, but a speedboat.
I think the boys felt the need for speed today, when they left for a ride on their own. Michael and Pen came over for a visit as well. Marilee & Hannah went tubing together. Although they ended up being dumped in the middle of the lake, Hannah was a brave little girl. (Thanks LeeLee for taking that one on!) Abigail spent most of her time swimming and had a great time.
We had an amazing meal at Michael and Pen's. Thanks for sharing your food and guests with us! The day ended with us gathered around the fire pit roasting giant marshmallows. One giant exhale for me today.
Today I am grateful for staying with Dean, Marilee, and Kristen.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday September 4, 2009
I've always felt my life was constantly changing, and I never liked the feeling of being "too" settled. Sometimes
things can become a bit stale, and nothing motivates me more than making that realization and taking steps forward.
Today I am grateful for cool breezes.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday September 3, 2009
We are headed to North Carolina Saturday evening. The girls have been counting down the days! I'm looking forward to the down time and relaxing with my family.
Today I am grateful for DVR.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday September 2, 2009
It feels like I spent most of the day on the telephone. I am in the process of making some very important decisions for myself--- and am to the point now where I need to start putting action steps in place.
Today I am grateful for triscuits.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday August 31, 2009
"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another."
Today I am grateful for tiny drops of rain.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday August 30, 2009
I am definitely struggling physically. I just can't seem to bounce back this time. Tomorrow is another day, and I still believe.
Today I am grateful for talking to Kelle.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday August 29, 2009
Fall is in the air. Somehow, this summer has passed me by. My back deck is usually fully decorated with plants and is treated like an additional room...my long front porch, the same. This year, the front porch is bare. The back deck has the furniture out and nothing else. It's very disappointing that I have not enjoyed the outdoors like I wanted to. The hammock frame is up, but the
seat itself has not been brought out of storage. I do plan to make sure I get some fall time in the hammock. It's not too late for that.
Today I am grateful for sharing a nap on the couch with a puppy.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday August 28, 2009
The first full school week is done. I'm getting up at six each day, but even seven school days in, my body doesn't like this new routine...and it lets me know.
Today I am grateful for personal growth.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday August 27, 2009
"It does not require a majority to prevail, but rather an irate, tireless minority keen to set brush fires in peoples' minds."
Today I am grateful for a boston terrier named Bella.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday August 23, 2009
What a night. I barely slept, and on top of a major sinus headache, not one place in body was pain free. I've been taking sinus meds for a couple days. My body reacts poorly to change in routine and excess medication. Here's to a better tomorrow.
Today I am grateful for a peaceful afternoon.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday August 20, 2009
Back to school! I took the girls to school this morning, making my first trip to the middle school to drop off one of my children. Abigail looked so grown up and mature as she popped out of the car and walked into her new school. She was not a bit nervous, and I am glad she feels confident.
This is Hannah's fourth year at the elementary school, so she was definitely feeling good about today. As she got out of the car, I reminded her that this year she had the school all to herself, since sister had moved on. Her response was a big thumbs up as she
headed to the sidewalk.
Today I am grateful for school smiles.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday August 19, 2009
Abigail got her hair cut today. We added more layers and I really like it, as does she. Abigail definitely feels it's more "middle school" appropriate.
Today I am grateful for Pam.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday August 18, 2009
School starts Thursday. Tonight was orientation--Frank took Hannah to the elementary school to meet her third grade teacher.
I took Abigail to the Middle School. She's going into sixth grade, her first year there. The process was two and a half hours! By the time we left, I was exhausted. She met all of her teachers, did a sample walk through of her schedule, and received her locker assignment. Abigail is so excited, and I'm proud to see her move on to another phase in her young life.
Today I am grateful for excited daughters.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday August 17, 2009
I had a follow-up appointment with my neurosurgeon today. My parents were going out of town, and with Frank needing to work, I had to drive myself to Bristol...and take two rowdy children with me. I don't remember the last time I've driven that distance on my own. The trip is difficult, and by the time I arrive I am usually in a fair amount of pain. Since I was the driver, that meant no medication until I returned home. I have to say I was also willing to prove to myself that I am still capable of doing things
on my own, and hopefully without too many ill side effects.
I'm now set-up with an approval to call whenever I want (within the next six months) and schedule my third cervical nerve block, without having to drive down for an initial appointment first. I'm limited on the number I can have in a year, and will try to wait a bit before getting another one done.
I made the trip successfully, but my pain levels are high tonight. Tomorrow should be a day of rest. Travel usually "comes down" on me the next day.
Today I am grateful to be back home.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday August 16, 2009
I didn't rest well last night and I missed Church today. There was a chance I could have pushed to go for the morning service,
but I have an appointment in Bristol tomorrow. If I didn't rest today, I wouldn't be able to travel in the morning.
Today I am grateful for clean sheets.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday August 15, 2009
I am finally feeling better. My body doesn't respond well to changes in routine. Although I have had the same scans many, many
times, the invasive nature of the chemicals used for the testing throws me off. Normally I bounce back quicker, but I can't
spend a lot of time wondering "why" when I just need to focus on each day in the present.
Today I am grateful for the smell of rain.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday August 14, 2009
"Rate the task above the prize; will not the mind be raised? Fight thine own faults, not the faults of others; will not evil be mended?"
Today I am grateful for fall-like temperatures.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday August 12, 2009
I'm still having difficulty physically. Until I can focus better, I'll be posting some quotes. Words are like therapy for me...
Today I am grateful for a much needed stay at home day.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday August 11, 2009
Scan Day. My cancer scans have hit me harder than usual, and I am quite sick to my stomach. I'll post details soon. I won't
have results for a couple of days.
Today I am grateful for Teena.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday August 10, 2009
Abigail had her shots today, that were required before she could start middle school. She is already counting down the days
until orientation. It's in eight days...
Today I am grateful for clean clothes.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday August 9, 2009
I've managed to get to Church three weeks in a row now. (Last week we went to Dean's church in North Carolina) I'm feeling
very encouraged, and taking one step at a time.
Today I am grateful for Sunday School.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday August 8, 2009
"We can manage if we will only take, each day, the burden appointed to it. But the load will be too heavy for us if we carry
yesterday's burden over again today, and then add the burden of the morrow before we are required to bear it."
Today I am grateful for hanging out with Beaver.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday August 7, 2009
School starts in less than two weeks! We went shopping today for the "list" items that came in the mail. It's crazy how much
stuff the teachers request, and when classes actually start, they will still need more. Abigail is extremely excited, since
she goes to middle school this year.
Today I am grateful for a quiet morning.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday August 6, 2009
"Getting outside of the box can not only be fun, it is sometimes necessary for our survival. That is what survival training is all about. It
disrupts our inner programming, the mentality of going through life on 'auto-pilot' so that we can readily see bright new
possibilities heading our way."
Today I am grateful for DVR.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday August 4, 2009
Be your authentic self. Certainly flawed, possibly against the grain...but be real, both with yourself and those around you.
You are doing everyone, including yourself, a huge disservice if you are not genuine. Besides, the truth is always less
complicated than the concocted stories.
Today I am grateful for teamwork.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday August 3, 2009
I had to shift a couple of appointments today. The weekend trip has come down on me today, and I need to take a few days
of downtime to recover. It was a good trip, and I wish we could have stayed longer!
Today I am grateful for empty laundry baskets.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday July 30, 2009
We will be leaving tomorrow when Frank gets off work, and driving to Dean's house. All of the family will
be there, as well as most of Marilee's family. Corey's birthday is Saturday--he would have been twenty years
old. It will be a weekend of many emotions...the grief from the loss of his life, the memories of the nineteen
years we had him, the happiness of being together, and much more.
Today I am grateful for new possibilities.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday July 29, 2009
"Getting outside of the box can not only be fun, it is sometimes necessary for our survival. That is what survival training
is all about. It disrupts our inner programming, the mentality of going through life on 'auto-pilot' so that we can readily
see bright new possibilities heading our way."
Today I am grateful for colby jack cheese.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday July 28, 2009
I didn't take any of the antibiotic since Sunday night, but it's going to take a few more days for my stomach to recover. I'm
being very careful with what I eat, to aid in the healing process.
Today I am grateful for lingering cool temps.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday July 27, 2009
I rode a bike today. For a few short moments. In the backyard.
This is actually a major accomplishment for me, in many ways. I don't think I've been on a bike in at least six
years. My thighs burned, my heart raced, it was difficult to catch my breath, but I did it. I DID IT.
Today I am grateful for victories.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday July 26, 2009
I've hit my limit on the antibiotic. It's making me quite ill, and with five more days to go, it's just not possible
for me to stay on it any longer. I'm going to take my chances that the infection will be cleared up. It's often a trade off
for me when it comes to certain meds, and this level of stomach pain isn't worth it.
Today I am grateful for Dad's visit.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday July 24, 2009
Congratulations, Abigail! I am so proud of you!
VBS ended tonight, and she won the prize for the most points (visitors brought, attendance, scripture memorization,
participation, etc). She is very excited to now own an mp3 player, among other prizes!
Today I am grateful for VBS.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday July 22, 2009
My scans are now scheduled for next Wednesday. Dr. Stefanini wants to see me afterwards, and it will be a long stay in
the hospital that day-- drinking for the MRI, injection with nuclear medicine for the bone scan, many vials of blood
drawn, and general poking and prodding. It's all familiar to me, and I have no hesitation about the process.
Today I am grateful for pulled weeds.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday July 20, 2009
I had an appointment with my allergy doctor today. In addition to getting my regular injections (every three weeks now),
I asked him to test me for dog allergies. I've been having daily headaches again, and needed to rule out that possibility.
The results came back negative. I'm now starting a round of antibiotics for a sinus infection. It's not overly
surprising to me, considering Frank had bronchitis and a sinus infection and still isn't quite over it. He's on
his second set of antibiotics and cough meds.
Today I am grateful for fall temps.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday July 19, 2009
I made it!
I attended Sunday School and Worship Service today. I was worn out and hurting when I got home, but it was a great feeling
to be "back".
Today I am grateful for two services.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday July 18, 2009
"Have the dogged determination to follow through to achieve your goal; regardless of circumstances or whatever other people
say, think, or do."
Today I am grateful for jewelry.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday July 17, 2009
Frank should really have some good cardio strength now. Initially, he was running Bailey two to three times a day.
Now that Bailey is bigger and faster, Frank rides a bike and Bailey runs along with him (on a retractable leash). It's
like a race, and most of the time the pup wins. It's so fun to watch him running so fast through the field back home.
Today I am grateful for clouds.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday July 16, 2009
A mix of two young children, two cats and a six month old lab puppy makes for a lot of challenges. Bailey is doing well with his
obedience training, but of course he is still a puppy. He is into everything, but it comes in spurts. Usually three times
a day Bailey goes nuts, then the rest of the time he is chilled out, often sleeping somewhere near me.
Today I am grateful for a quick cup of tea.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday July 14, 2009
"When you do the wrong thing, knowing it is wrong, you do so because you haven't developed
the habit of effectively controlling or neutralizing strong inner urges that tempt you, or because you have established
the wrong habits and don't know how to eliminate them effectively."
Today I am grateful for focus.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday July 13, 2009
This summer has been one like no other. After having extremely cold weather in late spring, my perennials have not done
as well as they usually do. The color isn't as vibrant, and it doesn't look or feel like summer. The hammock frame is up
and the lawn decor is done, but that's about as far as it goes. My deck only has the furniture on it, no potted plants and
the front porch is mostly empty. This may be the first year it remains like that, too.
Today I am grateful for doggie gates with kitty doors.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday July 9, 2009
Bailey came home today! He has completed his obedience training and I am so glad to have him home. Now it's time
for my work to begin, reinforcing his commands and making sure he remains pleasant to be around. At his size, he is
too big to be jumping on people! He'll be six months old next week...I can't believe how much he has grown!
Today I am grateful for coupon shopping.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday July 7, 2009
Bailey has completed his three weeks of training and will be coming home Thursday morning. He was gaining anywhere
from 4-7 pounds each week, so I can only imagine what he will look like when I finally get to see him. The house doesn't feel
the same without him in it.
Today I am grateful for a planned homecoming.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday July 6, 2009
Frank and the girls were visiting his mother over the fourth, so my parents delayed fireworks until tonight.
It was actually cold enough that we needed coats (and I wrapped up in a blanket). I enjoy our small family fireworks
show more than the large public displays, because we are family, cozy together, laughing.
Today I am grateful for firework fun.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday July 5, 2009
A sinus problem has slowed down my physical recovery. Because I've had to take sinus medication, my stomach is more irritated
than ever. Even though chemotherapy ended in October 2001, the damage it did to my stomach can't be healed. I do take daily
meds, but at times it's not strong enough to prevent a flare up.
Today I am grateful for new "fresh balsam" candles.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday July 4, 2009
God Bless the USA.
If tomorrow all the things were gone,
I’d worked for all my life.
And I had to start again,
with just my children and my wife.
I’d thank my lucky stars,
to be livin here today.
‘Cause the flag still stands for freedom,
and they can’t take that away.
And I’m proud to be an American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.
And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.
From the lakes of Minnesota,
to the hills of Tennessee.
Across the plains of Texas,
From sea to shining sea.
From Detroit down to Houston,
and New York to L.A.
Well there's pride in every American heart,
and its time we stand and say.
That I’m proud to be an American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.
And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.
And I’m proud to be and American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.
And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.
Today I am grateful for webkinz fun with Abigail.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday July 2, 2009
Bailey has been at obedience school for just over two weeks. Although I was gone eight of those days, I miss him very much.
I spoke with the trainer this evening, and he will probably "graduate" sometime at the beginning of next week. The
program averages three weeks, and she says he is doing very well.
Today I am grateful for vines.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday June 30, 2009
"Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones; and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace.
God is awake."
Today I am grateful for email.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday June 29, 2009
Other than a trip for my allergy injection, I stayed home today. It's a slow process to get unpacked and the laundry
is really piling up. I am still full of smiles from our amazing vacation, as details come to mind.
Today I am grateful for apple customer service.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday June 28, 2009
The trip home was much harder than the trip down. I did well during the week, all things considered. The nerve block two
days before helped. I adjusted my meds for the week and tried to break up each day with down time, for rest. On
Thursday, I felt I was hitting a wall, but after another rest, I bounced back. The "come down" of the week has hit today.
Between activity, travel, and medication side effects, it will probably last for a few days. Overall, I'm pleased with the
level that I functioned while away--and these side effects are now a routine for me after any road trip. I don't like them,
but I have learned to adapt.
Today I am grateful for cooler temperatures.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday June 27, 2009
Home.
To Mom & Dad, what an amazing week this has been. I can never thank you enough for this gift to our family. You are selfless
parents who have sacrificed for us your entire lives. You aren't wealthy, and this trip was indeed a labor of love
for you both. I know there are parents who could easily afford to take their grown children and their families on a vacation such
as this, but who would not be willing to do so. I've often been told that my parents are one-of-a-kind. Indeed you are
just that. I consider myself blessed to call you Mom and Dad. My only wish is that you could be inside my heart, because words
aren't enough...
To Dean, what can I say? At eleven months apart, boy do we have some stories to tell. We just pick up where we left off, and I
love that. Keep the light on, I'm coming soon.
To Michael, I wish you could have stayed all week. Watching you laugh and play with the girls was so fun. I miss those trips
to Charlotte. I think we are past due on a cozy weekend.
To Beaver, our awesome chef- Born when I was eighteen, I've watched you grow into a man. Your passion and excitement is my
satisfaction. How cool that my 'baby brother' is now a great friend, too.
To Marilee, my sister in law- I'm so thankful for our girl time together. We are more alike than we even knew. I hope we can
spend more time together. Peace.
To Kristen, sweet girl- Your inner beauty matches your outer beauty. What a great combination. With a smile that lights up
a room, you are a joy to be with. I am so grateful for the love you show my girls.
Today I am grateful for loud cheers and laughter.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday June 24, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HANNAH! Wow, eight years old...
In addition to Mom and Dad's "scheduled" surprise activities, we've had plenty of free time this week, so that everyone
could come and go as they pleased--if one group wanted to do something, there was no obligation for all eleven of us to go.
Today, however, was a day full of activity, as we celebrated Hannah's birthday.
After breakfast, most of the family took off to the pool. Dad had some errands to run (always resulting in surprises and
food!), and Mom & I had the cabin to ourselves. We sat on the second floor deck, enjoyed tea and a nice breeze, and just
hung out together. It was so nice to spend time alone with my mother. We also started watching a movie (without the
sound of pool and foosball in the background) but it was only about ten minutes in when we were greeted by the rest of the
family as they made their way home. We chuckled about not getting to see the entire movie uninterrupted, but were glad to see
everyone back.
I traveled with birthday decorations and had ordered Hannah's cake in Pigeon Forge last week, via telephone. Her theme was
'Monsters Vs. Aliens'. Although she knew what the party was, she hadn't seen the cake design. (They did a great job) The
big surprise was that the decorations were 3-D. I gave out glasses, and the table cover, plates, cups, and napkins were all
three-dimensional.
Hannah had wanted to go to the Nascar Speed park for her birthday, and since they have 'big boy cars', everyone was looking
forward to going. Although the temps had been in the 90's all week, this evening we had a breeze and it really wasn't too
hot. It was so fun watching everyone ride...the adults had as much, if not more, fun than the kids! The park also had rides,
and the Tilt-a-Whirl and Scrambler were favorites. Hannah even tried the climbing wall, and did very well! It was an action
packed, loud, fun night out.
Today I am grateful for a special miracle, eight years ago.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday June 23, 2009
Many of you may know that nature photography is my passion. The cabin surroundings are a photographers paradise! I've taken
some wonderful pics, and learned to make peace with rather large moths. Some of the patterns on their wings and bodies are
spectacular, and I'm looking forward to sharing these images with you.
Michael had to leave this afternoon (a recent job change presented him with reduced vacation days), and wanted to ride a
zip line before he left. They went and checked out the details, and all of us went to watch. Michael, Dean, Marilee, Kristen
and Frank all decided to have a go. Mom, Dad, Beaver and I found a spot with a perfect view, and took some great pictures
and video. The line was directly over our heads. I expected a bit more screaming, but based
on their smiles at the end, it must have been a fun ride!
Today I am grateful for waking without a crowded agenda, unlike being at home.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday June 22, 2009
Before we left for vacation, Abigail had developed a cough. I was dosing her with Delsym--a product that has been well proven
in our house. This time, she just wasn't shaking it. On Friday night, it was much worse and accompanied by a fever. I told Frank
that I wouldn't be surprised if Abigail ended up going to quick care while we were away.
Instead of getting better, she still seemed to be getting worse. She was running fevers then chilling, and it was obvious she just
didn't feel well, even though she tried to go along with our family activities. I was searching for a clinic on my iPhone before
7am this morning. We found a family practice that took walk-ins, and Frank took her as soon as they opened. They came home
with an antibiotic and prescription cough meds, and I'm hoping she'll start picking up quickly.
I stayed in and rested today, and this evening was a planned family night, staying home--we had a great time. It was an
evening of laughter and surprises.
Today I am grateful for story telling.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday June 21, 2009
FATHER'S DAY & MY MOM'S BIRTHDAY, both today!! (and a bonus bear sighting outside the cabin)
Last night we were told to be ready to leave for Church at 10:15...the service started at 11:00am. Again, we were given no details,
but knew there must be a surprise to come, and my Dad knew the person who was preaching. We all followed Dad and Mom's car,
and drove through the most beautiful area I have seen. The signage indicated that we were in Cades Cove. Along the way to
our unknown destination, we saw turkey and deer. The trees, streams, moss and foliage was just breathtaking. We did find it
odd that a Church would be somewhere in what appeared to be a National Park of some sort. I first thought we may have been
going to an amphitheater. We continued to drive and I saw a directional sign for a Primitive Baptist Church. I suddenly
remembered Mom and Dad telling me about them going to Cades Cove a couple years ago, and how Dad had fallen in love with
the historic building (it was no longer a functioning Church, but rather a "sight" to visit in the park. Everything clicked
and I told Frank that I thought Dad was going to preach in that old Church--and I was right!
Dad had obtained a permit to use the historic property, without our knowledge. Although it was a public place, and people
could come in and out as they pleased, he was allowed to hold a service. Dad had printed a program for all of us, and
stepped behind the pulpit. It was an amazing experience. We sang and he preached...in a building from 1827. You could see
the hand prints on the ceiling in the wood as it was put up, and the old nails worn....we sat on the pews that had many
stories of their own to tell, as well. As he preached, people came in and out, and some decided to sit and stay. I was
overcome with emotion from the service itself--and full of pride that it was MY father who was standing up there. On the
drive out we saw turkeys and deer...and were treated to the sight of not one, but two bears! (It's not a sure thing
to see bear here). People were stopping everywhere along the road, to take pictures and video.
After a few hours back at the cabin, we went out to celebrate my Mom's birthday, and then into Gatlinburg for a couple of
hours. It's just as fun to people watch as it is to visit the shops. By the time we returned, it was very late, and we all
fell into bed exhausted and happy.
Today I am grateful for celebrating two special days in one.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday June 20, 2009
We were on the road at 8am, with directions to meet Mom & Dad in a specific grocery store parking lot in Pigeon Forge at
11am. Arriving a few minutes late, one of my brothers was already there, and my other two brothers arrived within minutes.
Our family (eleven of us) made our way through the grocery store, aisle by aisle. Mom had the cart for "real food" shopping
(accompanied by my brother the chef of course) and we stuck with Dad, who had the "other cart". We were all told to grab what
we wanted, and that's exactly what we did. From strawberries to chocolate, wheat thins to doughnuts...we were like children
again-- and Daddy was paying!
After almost two years of planning, this was our moment. It was time to see the cabin. We knew absolutely nothing about
where we were staying, not even the location. Dad handed us all a map and told us to give him and Mom a fifteen minute
head start. As we made the final turn, there it was...(and here is where I have sat at the keyboard trying to find the words
to describe how we all felt) There were exclamations of "No way!" and "Are you kidding me?", as we stood facing a glass
fronted, multi story "cabin". The plaque at the door said One In A Million and that describes it perfectly. I felt like we
were in an episode of Extreme Home Makeover when the bus driver "moves that bus". The outside was just the beginning. The
first floor had a large game room, complete with flat screen tv, foosball, pool table and even board games in the closet.
As we made our way around, we realized that each of us had our own bedroom and private bathroom, including jacuzzi tub. With
multiple seating areas, a fireplace, large kitchen, this "cabin" even had an elevator!
The evening was spent inside, with lots of family fun. We are a noisy bunch when we all get together, I admit that.
The banter is nonstop and it felt great just to relax and enjoy. a peek at our home for a week!
Today I am grateful for the surprise of a lifetime.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday June 19, 2009
It's finally here! Family vacation time. Dad is taking all of his (adult) children and their families on an eight
day vacation. We know we will be in the Pigeon Forge area, but everything else has been kept a secret! We are to meet them
in a specific parking lot at 11:00am tomorrow. Let the fun begin!
I do not know if I will have internet access. If not, entries will be made current upon my return.
Today I am grateful for packing day.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday June 18, 2009
I don't enjoy leaving in the dark of morning to go anywhere. At 5:00 it was definitely dark!
Thankfully there were no delays today, and my nerve block was done "close" to on time. I seem to have a bit more pain than
I did on the first one about seven weeks ago--but it would not be uncommon to have a few days of "get worse before it gets better",
and I'm ok with that.
Today I am grateful for another completed procedure.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday June 17, 2009
It was still up in the air about my repeat nerve block until this afternoon. Although the doctor's office said I was
scheduled for tomorrow, the surgery center had no record of my procedure. I'm now confirmed for 6:45am, and that means I'll
need to leave here at 5:00. Too early!
Today I am grateful for vacation countdown time.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday June 15, 2009
"The Road Of Ministry"
As you travel this special road of ministry,
may the Spirit of God surround you.
Always remember that the Lord has promised to be there,
whether you are in a valley, or on a mountain top.
His hand will guide you and protect you from harm,
as long as you stay close to His side.
If you should get ahead of Him, He will humble you.
If you should falter, He will encourage you.
His grace will be sufficient for you to carry out the ministry
He has anointed you to walk in.
His blessings will follow you
wherever you go.
Today I am grateful for strong role models.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday June 14, 2009
"In hard times she had learned three things - She was stronger than she ever imagined, Jesus was closer than she ever realized, and
She was loved more than she ever knew."
Today I am grateful for my neighbor's flowers.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday June 11, 2009
I was scheduled for the next nerve block this morning. Unfortunately, the virus in our house hit me last night, and it
was impossible for me to travel today. They are trying to get me scheduled for next week.
Today I am grateful for Mom and Dad's safe return home.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday June 10, 2009
Mom's procedure seems to have went as the doctor expected. We won't know for sure the extent of its success for
about two weeks. Surely this time things will work for her...
Today I am grateful for the "thumbs up".
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday June 9, 2009
The virus hadn't left our house after all, and Frank was hit last night. He couldn't even work today, he was so sick. I've
sanitized and disinfected as much as possible, hoping to shelter myself and Abigail.
Today I am grateful for sombra warm therapy gel.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday June 8, 2009
"There is a garden in every childhood, an enchanted place where colors are brighter, the air softer, and the morning more
fragrant than ever again."
Today I am grateful for puppy teeth.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday June 7, 2009
Hannah was hit with the stomach bug around 1:30 this morning. By tonight, she seems to be much better. Even at her
worst, her spirits were good.
Mom & Dad had a flight this morning for Mom to return to the doctor in New Jersey. They've arrived safely, and I pray
that this week the physician will be able to help her.
Today I am grateful for Hannah's smile.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday June 6, 2009
"As long as you keep a person down, some part of you has to be down there to hold him down, so it means you cannot soar as you
otherwise might."
Today I am grateful for calming rain.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday June 4, 2009
I went for my follow up with the neurosurgeon today. I could have chosen to take the next step and move
more toward surgical options, but opted for another cervical nerve block. Since the first one did provide some relief,
I want to give it another chance in hopes of it being more beneficial on the second round. I'll have the procedure
next week.
The office was not as crowded today, which was a blessing. Dad drove me down (we've realized it's safe to allow
an hour and a half with no stops). After the appointment, he took me to IHOP for one of my favorite treats--
swedish crepes. (Lingonberries on the side, hold the butter, no powdered sugar, sugar free syrup, please)
Thanks Dad, for the trip, and the time spent together.
Today I am grateful for sitting in IHOP with Dad.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday June 3, 2009
Each day I seem to feel more and more fatigued. I'm also feeling very drowsy in the late afternoon. Although
accustomed to a level of tiredness, it's rare that I feel sleepy as well. I'm not sure what's going on, but I
need to get out of this "funk".
Today I am grateful for new blooms.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday June 2, 2009
"We must dare to think 'unthinkable' thoughts. We must learn to explore all the options and possibilities
that confront us in a complex and rapidly changing world."
Today I am grateful for laughter.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday June 1, 2009
Mom's brother Bob and Sue have purchased a home in Florida. Although they live in the UK, they will now be spending
part of their time here in the states. They've come up for a visit and it's so nice so know that we can see "Uncle Bob and
Auntie Sue" more often. I look forward to the fall, when they will begin a six month stay "not so far away."
Today I am grateful for comfortable visits.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday May 31, 2009
Eleven years ago, I had just given birth to my first child. Time passes so quickly...and she
is growing up so fast...
Happy Birthday, Puff. I love you so very much.
Today I am grateful for Silver.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday May 29, 2009
I absolutely love nature photography. Not only could I look at it for hours, nothing makes me happier than strolling
through my own yard and taking pictures. Other than cropping and sometimes adding a border, I do not alter my photos
in any way (photoshop, etc). I prefer the "raw" images themselves.
Here's a sample of what I get to enjoy:
click to view "my back yard"
Today I am grateful for photography.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday May 28, 2009 Hannah-ism: Hannah wanted to fix me breakfast in bed. We decided on a bagel, and she headed into the
kitchen.
Hannah: "Close your eyes, Mommy. I have a special surprise for you!"
Me: "Ok, my eyes are closed!" (I thought maybe she had used a special plate or something)
Hannah: "Ok, you can look!"
Me: (seeing a special "side" of something on the plate) "Wow, you fixed more than a bagel!"
Hannah: "See what it is? On the bottom is a square of colby-jack cheese. I sprayed whipped creme on top, but I tasted it
to make sure they taste good together first. On top is what I found in the cabinet-- some spray cheese.
I wouldn't eat the hard part on the side, it was what came out of the can first."
Me: "It looks delicious!" (cringing on the inside and wondering where 'spray cheese' came from)
Hannah: "And look, I put a bit-o-honey candy on there, too."
Me: "I love bit-o-honey! Yummy!"
Hannah: "Yeah, that's your dessert, and I figure I can have a brownie with whipped creme after I eat a waffle."
Today I am grateful for laughter.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday May 27, 2009
Bailey is growing so fast, it's almost like we can see a difference in him every morning. He's now just over four
months old, and weighs twenty-eight pounds. Looking back at pictures of him just two months ago, he has quadrupled in
size!
Today I am grateful for Bailey's survival.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday May 26, 2009
We've had an amazing amount of rain recently. I absolutely love rainy days, they make me feel insulated and peaceful.
And even though many people don't like thunderstorms, I am always glad to see one come in. Especially at night.
Today I am grateful for seeing my Dad every day.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday May 23, 2009
Beaver came in today and fixed Dad's birthday dinner. Although I didn't eat the steaks, they looked amazing. I had
the "sister special", chicken. Dessert was amazing-- a light, fresh berry creation. I didn't have seconds, but I DID
sneak my fork in Beav's bowl a few times!
Today I am grateful for an enjoyable meal.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday May 22, 2009
Dear Lord, for all in pain
We pray to thee;
O come and smite again
Thine enemy.
Give to thy servants skill
To soothe and bless,
And to the tired and ill
Give quietness.
And, Lord, to those who know
Pain may not cease,
Come near, that even so
They may have peace.
Today I am grateful for a husband who loves me unconditionally.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday May 20, 2009
"Live each season as it passes; breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit, and resign yourself to the influences
of each."
Today I am grateful for "sit".
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday May 19, 2009
"The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather
in a lack of will."
Today I am grateful for sunshine.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday May 18, 2009
For Kelle:
I hope your birthday gently breezes into your life all the choicest of things and all that your heart holds
dear. My love to you, always.
Today I am grateful for a shared bond like no other.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday May 17, 2009
Abigail woke up with a pretty high fever. She seems to get these often, with no real explanation. Usually Tylenol and rest
will pull her out of it. We missed Church today, and stayed dosed up and rested. She's still fairly warm tonight...but
has a SOL test tomorrow after lunch, and she really can't miss it.
Today I am grateful for time with Abigail.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday May 16, 2009
The late cold weather this year has really had an effect on the flowers. Although everything is blooming and looks pretty,
I came across pics from this time last year--and we are nowhere near the color we had then. Of everything, the middle side
bed is looking very good. The alliums are standing tall, the lilac (mommaw's memorial tree) is in full bloom, and mom's
wisteria that is on the other side of the partial fence we share is full of buds. My own wisteria should really start crossing
over the arbor in the back yard this year.
Today I am grateful for a mountain full of bright green trees.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday May 14, 2009
Abigail had to have two baby teeth pulled today (one was a molar). Her adult teeth have been coming in but it was too crowded
in her mouth. She did very well, and since they told her she had to close her eyes so the medicine wouldn't splash, she
doesn't even know it was actually a shot! I heard her tell Hannah she didn't get one, only some "medicine to put the teeth
to sleep." Our dental office is fantastic!
Today I am grateful for Dr. Catron and Tonya.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday May 13, 2009
"Truth does not become more true by virtue of the fact that the entire world agrees with it, nor less so even if the whole
world disagrees with it."
Today I am grateful for Connie's visits to my inbox.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday May 12, 2009
Frank actually took a day off work today. It seems we barely spend time with each other, especially without the girls.
Although there was a lot of "work" to get done, it was nice to have him here.
Today I am grateful for time spent with Frank.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday May 11, 2009
Bailey now weighs over twenty pounds, and he's just short of four months old. It's hard to believe he weighed seven pounds
less than two months ago, and almost died from parvo. He seems to be a perfectly healthy puppy now, full of energy and love.
Today I am grateful for Bailey's survival.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday May 10, 2009
Happy Mothers Day!
"A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy and sudden, fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity;
when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us, and
endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts."
Today I am grateful for Mom.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday May 9, 2009
"The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right place, but to leave unsaid
the wrong thing at the tempting moment."
Today I am grateful for outdoor beauty.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday May 7, 2009
It's been two weeks since Dr. Brasfield did the nerve block in my neck. I have definitely had some level of pain relief from
the procedure. I return to him for a follow up in a month, and we will determine whether to repeat the process.
Today I am grateful for walnuts.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday May 6, 2009
"Some day, in years to come, you will be wrestling with the great temptation, or trembling under the great sorrow of your
life. But the real struggle is here, now, in these quiet weeks. Now it is being decided whether, in the day of your supreme
sorrow or temptation, you shall miserably fail or gloriously conquer. Character cannot be made except by a steady, long
continued process."
Today I am grateful for trees.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday May 5, 2009
Success! Mom saw the new doctor today, and things went well. We are all very pleased with his apparent success with
a diagnosis, treatment plan and future options.
Today I am grateful for the view from my living room.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday May 3, 2009
Mom and Dad's layover flight was canceled and tonight they are in a hotel in Charlotte. Dad will call the doctor
in the morning to see if he will still see Mom, since they can't get to Newark until tomorrow afternoon.
I'm praying they can work something out rather than coming home and waiting a few more weeks. She has been
waiting too long already.
Today I am grateful for positive attitudes.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday May 2, 2009
Mom and Dad are back home and packing again. They fly tomorrow to see a new doctor for Mom. We are praying he will
be able to diagnose what has been a mystery to so many others.
Today I am grateful for welcome home banners.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday April 30, 2009
My head is spinning from the events of the past nine years, and more so the past year, specifically the past couple of months.
I sometimes find myself almost without words, as I witness tragedy, heartache, illness and more everywhere around me. The
entire "Trent" family (me, my parents, my siblings and spouses) seems to be facing new trials each day. I remain hopeful--for so
many things...
Today I am grateful for hallmark cards.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday April 29, 2009
When it rains, it pours. Please pray for my brother Dean. He was taken to the emergency room and is dealing with a large
kidney stone.
Today I am grateful for alone time in the auditorium.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday April 27, 2009 Hannah-ism: Hannah has had a new "boyfriend" for a few months now, but she doesn't seem as interested in him as
her "first" one, who lasted two school years! As soon as she came home today:
Hannah: "I dumped (him) today."
Me: "You did? Why?"
Hannah: "He was going around telling other girls they were his girlfriends, too."
Me: "That's not good, is it?"
Hannah: "No, I told him that was cheating, and he isn't my boyfriend anymore.
(pause) I told him not to call my house again, too."
Me: "Well, you don't need to have a boyfriend all the time anyway."
Hannah: "And guess what happened next?"
Me: "What?"
Hannah: "The other girls found out what he was doing and they broke up with him, too!"
Me: "I guess he learned his lesson, huh?"
Hannah: "He kept begging me to go back with him. I said no. He even offered me twelve dollars! I still
said no."
Me: "Good for you."
Hannah: "I don't date cheaters."
Today I am grateful for clean carpet.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday April 26, 2009
"Had there been no difficulties and no thorns in the way, then man would have been in his primitive state and no progress made
in civilization and mental culture."
Today I am grateful for the breeze coming through the front windows.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday April 25, 2009
Frank and the girls left this evening for a surprise trip. Until they were getting in the car, they thought maybe they
were going to a movie. Instead, they went for an overnight trip to their Uncle Drew's home (Frank's brother). What
they won't know until tomorrow is that they will be going to the Ringling Bros. and Barnum & Bailey circus!
Today I am grateful for Drew's generosity.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday April 24, 2009
I woke up this morning and my first realization was that the back of my head didn't hurt. It's usually so bad that I
can't even touch it--and it took me a few moments to really "get it". Tonight I still can hardly believe it happened, it's
been so long. My neck is sore today, but it isn't hurting like what had become my "normal". I don't know how long it will
last, but I'm grateful for every hour of relief.
Today I am grateful for waking without a headache.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday April 23, 2009
Dad and I left here at around 5:20 this morning. I was due at the surgery center at 7:30. We were there with some time to
spare, and I was first to register, and first on the list of procedures. Unfortunately, not one, but two medical emergencies
required the surgeon's attention. Rather than being in and out with an hour or so, we were there for four hours.
I had to sit with my head bent forward. Dr. Brasfield explained that at one point he would be within about a quarter of an
inch of my spinal cord and I needed to remain very still. He manipulated the needle in my neck, and after several minutes and
many images taken, he placed the medication where it needed to go (if he was 1/4 inch off in any direction, the injection would
not be effective).
The initial phase would be the numbing medication, and that would last for a few hours. The steroids may begin to give results
within 2-3 days, or could take up to two weeks to show improvement. When I left, I was in amazement. My neck didn't hurt!
I don't even remember a time when I felt like that. By tonight, I'm hurting, but only at the injection site itself, which is to
be expected. The pain in the rest of my body is due to the long day I had.
Today I am grateful for Dr. Brasfield's expertise.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday April 22, 2009
"When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been
your delight."
Today I am grateful for photo memories.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday April 21, 2009
The final verdict on my hard drive: no recovery.
All data is lost.
If you correspond with me via email, please be aware that I no longer have your email address. Please send an email
to carolynn@pinkribbonmiracle.com,
and I will add you back to my address book.
Today I am grateful for Dad's hugs.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday April 20, 2009
I had my appointment with the neurosurgeon today. The results are back, and the degenerative disc disease is causing
more problems than the herniated disc. I'm scheduled for a x-ray guided cervical nerve block on Thursday. Although
there is no guarantee, this might very well diminish my pain levels. I'm optimistic.
Today I am grateful for a new plan.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday April 19, 2009
Our exteriors do not define who we are. Please take a moment and give someone a chance. You might be
surprised at what you learn.
Today I am grateful for a teen cookout.
Thank you God, for another day.
UPDATE, Saturday April 18, 2009: After taking an announced five days off before Easter, my intent was to
return the following day. On that Monday, my hard drive crashed! My apologies. This is the longest downtime I have experienced.
After multiple hardware and software issues, I have only become stable this afternoon. I will make every attempt to bring the
journal current within the next two days and have begun uploading entries now. Thank you for your patience!
Entries are current now, with the exception of two 'Photo Friday' images. I hope to get my software installed and have those
edited in this week.
Photo Friday images have been edited into 4/10 and 4/17 entries, and the site is now current.
Saturday April 18, 2009
It appears my current system is working correctly now. I still have the task of trying to recover data from the last hard
drive. I am hopeful, but not overly encouraged based on what we have tried so far.
Today I am grateful for chat support.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday April 17, 2009
All of the work I had done for two full days on the laptop was for naught. There was also corruption in the OS that was pre installed
on the NEW hard drive. I had to load a new operating system and delete everything I had begun to put back together.
This is quite tedious and still no real answer on old data recovery from the first faulty hard drive.
Today I am grateful for patience, although it is starting to run thin.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday April 16, 2009
Although I've tried to work at a reasonable pace, the computer repair time is taking a toll on me, especially my neck and
shoulders. I'm only doing the bare necessities, just to get me up and functioning at a reasonable level.
Today I am grateful for taxes completed over two months ago.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday April 14, 2009
Bailey has almost doubled his weight in two weeks! He weighed 11.7 pounds at the vet today. Dr. Deel was very pleased
with his progress. She did a scrape on his tail and it was negative, so now it's a matter of watching and waiting.
Today I am grateful for the staff of Animal Care Center's kindness.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday April 13, 2009
Although my laptop is only about six months old, the hard drive crashed this morning. I have had to move to
the older laptop for now. Dell is sending a new hard drive, and I will be spending time trying to recover
any data I can from the lost drive (with Beav's help!). At this moment, I have access to NONE of my information.
Today I am grateful for Beaver's arrival.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday April 10, 2009
Over the past couple of days, Bailey has developed a bare spot on his tail. It's gotten bigger quickly, yet he shows no
sign of it bothering him, and he doesn't bite or chew at it. After everything he has been through, I am concerned that
there is some lasting effect from parvo. Bailey has his second round of shots Tuesday so I will have Dr. Deel take
a look.
Today I am grateful for family ties.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday April 8, 2009
Bailey has really made a turn for the positive. He is now actively eating, and gaining weight quickly. Training
is going well, but it really is like having a baby in the house again!!
Today I am grateful for puppy 'bunny hops'.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday April 7, 2009
Even though I would rather not have had another snow, I do have to say that this is a pretty one. Tulips and daffodils
were peeking through the blanket of snow. It warmed quickly, so I am hoping the remaining buds will still bloom.
Today I am grateful for a vase of fresh cut daffodils.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday April 5, 2009 Hannah-ism: Each year we have a few ladybugs that make it inside our house. Hannah loves them.
Hannah: "Mommy, Bob the ladybug is dead."
Me: "Oh no!"
Hannah: "Yeah, his head fell off."
Today I am grateful for puppy barks.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday April 2, 2009
Bailey slept all night (midnight to six), without incident. As the day progressed he was showing signs of improvement, even
mouthing and biting me a bit to play. He does tire easily, and after a little time up, he is ready for rest.
Today I am grateful for memorials.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday April 1, 2009
Bailey is fairly unstable when walking, can no longer climb the three deck steps to go outside, and still very weak. He is
wagging his tail, but definitely not playful. The illness really took a toll on his body. I've been cooking chicken breasts
for him, mixing it with puppy food. He's eating and drinking in small amounts but I'm sure he'll get stronger each day.
Today I am grateful for a beautiful slide show.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday March 29, 2009
We are traveling this morning to North Carolina. The family will gather this afternoon, and my nephew's funeral will be
tomorrow. I am praying for strength as the family goes through this painful loss.
Today I am grateful for God's peace.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday March 28, 2009
Hannah went to the doctor today. She has a bad case of strep throat, and has started meds. Thankfully, she isn't running
a fever.
One week ago today, Bailey was admitted to the hospital. Through many ups and downs, including the appearance of a
seizure yesterday, he seems to be pulling out of the illness. Bailey is now barking and eating. Although there is still a small
amount of vomiting and he is on anti-nausea meds and an IV, he is eating. As of tonight, he has been off of pain medication
for 36 hours. The possibility of bringing him home is now very likely, barring any sudden relapse.
Today I am grateful for the Animal Care Center.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday March 24, 2009
Today has been the most difficult day for me in dealing with Bailey's illness. This morning he was "the same as yesterday."
By mid afternoon he was "slightly improved" and by 5pm he had started to decline and the doctor is "concerned". I've
known from the beginning that parvo outcomes cannot be predicted, and setbacks can happen at any time...but
today was a roller coaster ride.
And now a sixteen hour wait before I can speak with the doctor again, first thing in the morning.
Today I am grateful for photography.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday March 23, 2009
9:00am: I was on hold for an extended period of time, waiting to speak with Dr. Deel. My stomach was in knots.
Update, Bailey survived another night (with some vomiting). When Dr. Deel went to see him his morning, his eyes were bright
and he wagged his tail a bit. That's progress.
2:00pm: Vomiting has stopped, but it's still touch and go. One episode of blood/stool. She assured me that Bailey is experiencing no discomfort.
5:00pm: An assistant was cleaning Bailey and he tried to lick the wet cloth. Dr. Deel decided to offer him a small amount
of water. He drank it all, and at this time he has kept it down for over an hour.
Today I am grateful for 55 hours of survival and a fighting spirit.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday March 22, 2009
10:30am: The doctor called and Bailey survived the night. Bloody stools as the virus attacks the intestine. The next few hours
are critical.
6:15pm: Vomiting has stopped, but it's a "hope and a prayer" in the doctor's words. Pain meds are keeping him comfortable.
As I write this, I must wait out eleven hours, when the Clinic opens to get another update.
Today I am grateful for 24+ hours survival.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday March 21, 2009
At 1:30 this morning, Bailey did show some signs of playfulness and drank some water. Unfortunately, by breakfast time, he
was sleeping more and refused food and water. The Animal Clinic opened at 10:00 and I called them right away.
After a kiss and an "I love you", Frank took Bailey from my arms and on to the vet. When he arrived, I spoke
to the doctor (via cell) to give her all of the specifics of what had transpired in the previous hours. After about
fifteen minutes, Frank called and said the doctor wanted to speak to me. "I'm sorry, but Bailey has tested positive for Parvo."
Emotionally, I don't have it in me to go through writing the details here, right now. I will say this--he has been hospitalized
and is being treated aggressively. He has a 50/50 chance of survival. As of this evening, he has received two plasma transfusions,
and is being given Tamiflu, antibiotics, pain medication, and IV fluids. I am confident they are doing everything they can to
keep him alive.
We've only had Bailey for four days, but I have already fallen madly in love with him. He's a very special puppy. This has
devastated our family, and my prayer is that he will survive the night.
Today I am grateful for hope.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday March 20, 2009
After a quick trip to the doctor, it was confirmed that I have a low grade infection. I only have to be on meds for five
days, and hopefully my stomach will hold out that long.
Bailey quickly became lethargic this evening and wouldn't eat dinner. I finally managed to hand feed him about a dozen pieces
of puppy food around eight o'clock this evening. Now he doesn't want to drink anything either. If he does not improve during
the night, we'll get Bailey to the vet tomorrow morning.
Today I am grateful for the smell of a clean puppy.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday March 19, 2009
Yesterday was a rest day for me, to make sure I didn't develop any side effects from testing. My lower back is now hurting
a great deal. I'm not sure if it is from the needles, or if the positions they had me in has caused a flare up. The possibility
that this may also be accompanied by kidney pain has crossed my mind.
I took Bailey to see Dr. Deel, our vet, for his first checkup and vaccinations. He seems to be healthy and weighs in at seven
and a half pounds. Sable has become curious enough to walk up to the baby gate and watch him. I'm pleased with the progress in
such a short amount of time.
Today I am grateful for companion animals.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday March 18, 2009
So now we have a puppy in the house. Bailey is a lab mix, approximately nine weeks old. He's a rescue dog, and he only
spent one night in the shelter. It wasn't our intent to get another pet yesterday, but things just fell into place
and here he is. Frank had to make a quick trip to WalMart for basic supplies...collar, leash, crate, toys, shampoo, two baby gates
and some iams puppy food.
Right now Bailey is confined to the kitchen. He can roam freely in there, and is crated at night. He took right to the crate,
eager to nap in there on a fleece blanket throughout the day.
He barked and cried throughout the night, and was taken outside three times. (Frank is taking the night shift) We've only had
a couple of accidents and he seems to be adapting well.
The cats are cautious, and their acceptance of him will determine how long he is kept in the kitchen. Right now they
are keeping their distance. I am optimistic that they will get along, as long as we are patient.
Today I am grateful for blooming daffodils.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday March 17, 2009
Although it was nice to stay at the Courtyard, I wish we would have been there longer than twelve hours!
We made our way to the hospital and my tests were completed. This was my first experience with this particular facility,
and I was very pleased with the friendliness and efficiency of the staff. The myelogram needles were not bad, but the positions
I had to be placed in caused a great deal of neck pain. The CT and bone scan were without incident. I'm glad to have them
behind me, and will get the results on March 30, when I return to the surgeon.
Although a bit unexpected, the day ended with a real treat. Welcome Bailey!
Today I am grateful for puppy dog eyes.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday March 16, 2009
Frank and I are leaving this evening to drive to Bristol. Three tests are scheduled in the morning, one of which has a risk of
side effects I want to try and avoid. For that reason, I may not be back online until Wednesday or Thursday. I would
appreciate your thoughts and prayers, that these tests would give the doctor clarity in deciding a treatment option.
Today I am grateful for talking with Dad.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday March 14, 2009
Every day I look outside, I see more and more new growth. Trees are budding out. Daffodils are blooming. Tulips are popping
up around the trees. I cannot help but feel encouraged.
Spring.
Life.
New beginnings.
:sigh:
Today I am grateful for protein bars.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday March 13, 2009
"Expect to have hope rekindled. Expect your prayers to be answered in wondrous ways. The dry seasons in life do not last. The spring rains
will come again."
Today I am grateful for spring blooms.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday March 10, 2009
Kelle left today--her visit passed much too quickly. Since she was flying out of Bristol and my appointment was today, we all rode
together. When I was called for my appointment, she left with Frank to go to the airport.
I met with the neurosurgeon, and he was very pleasant and thorough. After reviewing my MRI images, he said I had a lot of
arthritis in my neck, but wanted to complete more comprehensive testing. I will be having a myelogram, cat scan and bone scan
next Tuesday. The myelogram is done by injecting a dye into the spinal area and my head will be placed in different positions
to see what happens in my neck when I move, and how much damage exists with the discs.
Today I am grateful for blue jeans and laughter.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday March 8, 2009
"Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication.
Remember all things are possible for those who believe."
Today I am grateful for warmer weather.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday March 7, 2009
We've had a three day run of warmer temps and I couldn't be happier. Just that in itself lowers my pain levels some,
and I'll take any relief I can get.
It also helps to have my "sister" visiting!
Today I am grateful for warmer weather.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday March 6, 2009 Hannah-ism: Hannah had a dental appointment, and I drove through Wendy's on the way home.
Cashier (to me): "Your total is $2.10, young lady."
I handed him the money.
Cashier: "Thank you, young lady."
Cashier: "You have a good day, young lady."
I begin to pull forward to the next window to pick up her food.
Hannah: "Well, Mommy, at least he doesn't think you are old!!"
Today I am grateful for girl talk.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday March 5, 2009
Frank picked up Kelle this afternoon and all is well! It was so good to see her again, and of course it feels "just right" to
have her in our home.
My neurosurgeon's appointment was moved to Tuesday, where the time slot is a bit longer...should the physician want to do any additional
testing the same day. This works out fine, since that's the day Kelle leaves, and we will be in the Bristol area.
Today I am grateful for Kelle's long awaited arrival.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday March 4, 2009 Hannah-ism: Hannah was in the kitchen doing her school work and Frank walked in.
Hannah: "Daddy, when you were a kid, did you have rocks to write on?"
Frank: "No, we had pencils and paper back then."
Hannah: "Hmm, I wonder about Poppy..."
Today I am grateful for Pam's house calls.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday March 3, 2009
I found out today that I have an appointment with the neurosurgeon. It's Thursday! I'm glad they were able to get me in
so quickly. This is also the day Kelle comes...and the Physician's Office is not far from the airport. It's likely that Frank
will leave me there, go pick her up, and the two of them come back for me. I am looking forward to hearing about treatment
options. If I do undergo surgery, I will NOT have a fusion done. That's probably the most common question I get asked. I am
open to injections and surgery, but not a complete fusion.
Today I am grateful for efficiency.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday March 2, 2009
As I write this, we have been without internet since 9:30pm last night. I'm not sure when this entry will go up--
we've been told there were some malicious attacks on Time Warner Cable's servers, and the outage is fairly widespread.
Until the service is restored, I'll continue to update offline, and upload as soon as we're back online.
Today I am grateful for little girl lunch parties.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday March 1, 2009
Another round of snow came in today, and the temperature is dropping. I've been cold all day, and can't seem to warm up.
My body hurts and I am really yearning for Spring weather. Tomorrow is going to be a very cold day and wind chills at night
are expected to be below zero.
Today I am grateful for bouncy ponytails.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday February 28, 2009
A Little Truth In Humor:
WHY, WHY, WHY...
Why do we press harder on a remote control when we know the batteries are almost dead?
Why do banks charge a fee on 'insufficient funds' when they already know there is not enough money?
Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars; but have to check when you say the paint is still wet?
Why doesn't Tarzan have a beard?
Why does Superman stop bullets with his chest, but ducks when you throw a revolver at him?
Whose idea was it to put an 'S' in the word 'lisp'?
If people evolved from apes, why are there still apes?
Why is it that no matter what color bubble bath you use the bubbles are always white?
Is there ever a day that mattresses are not on sale?
Why do people constantly return to the refrigerator with hopes that something new to eat will have materialized?
Why do people keep running over a string a dozen times with their vacuum cleaner, then reach down, pick it up, examine it,
then put it down to give the vacuum one more chance?
Why is it that no plastic bag will open from the end on your first try?
How do those dead bugs get into those enclosed light fixtures?
When we are in the supermarket and someone rams our ankle with a shopping cart then apologizes for doing so, why do we say,
'It's all right?' Well, it isn't all right, so why don't we say, 'That really hurt, why don't you watch where you're going?'
Why is it that whenever you attempt to catch something that's falling off the table you always manage to knock something else
over?
In winter why do we try to keep the house as warm as it was in summer when we complained about the heat?
How come you never hear father-in-law jokes?
Today I am grateful for a rare movie night at home.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday February 27, 2009
"Be as a bird perched on a frail branch that she feels bending beneath her, still she sings away all the same, knowing
she has wings."
Today I am grateful for birds feeding at Mom & Dad's home.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday February 26, 2009
One week from today, Kelle will be here. It's been about two years since we have actually seen each other, even though
we communicate in some form almost every day. It will be wonderful to spend some precious time together.
Today I am grateful for a surprise text from a very special friend.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday February 25, 2009
My local doctor is calling in a referral to a neurosurgeon in Bristol. I've spoken to his office and it seems I should get
an appointment for a consultation soon. I'm looking forward to finding out what options I have for the problem discs in
my neck. For now, my back can wait.
Today I am grateful for helpful physicians.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday February 24, 2009
"When you have a great and difficult task, something perhaps almost impossible, if you only work a little at a time, every day
a little, suddenly the work will finish itself."
Today I am grateful for ECBs.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday February 23, 2009
The girls got a snow day from school today, and the extra treat of my Dad taking them outside to play. They had
a great time sledding and playing in the snow with Poppy.
Today I am grateful for snow angels.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday February 22, 2009
Although I am looking forward to Spring, the most beautiful snowfall came overnight and throughout today. There are several
inches on the ground, and I happily built a fire and watched the flakes float to the ground.
Today I am grateful for fluffy snowflakes.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday February 21, 2009
A little weekend humor:
Notice: Due to recent budget cuts, high unemployment and the rising costs of food, electricity, gas and oil, as well as current market
conditions, and the overall state of the union, The Light at the End of the Tunnel has been turned off.
We apologize for the inconvenience.
Today I am grateful for nature's gifts of beauty.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday February 19, 2009
For those of you that are interested, I started another blog at the beginning of this year. This site features a daily
photo representing "my life, a day at a time", and has an available commenting feature. You can check it out
here.
Today I am grateful for stories told by photographs.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday February 18, 2009
"Sometimes our fate resembles a fruit tree in winter. Who would think that those branches would turn green again and blossom,
but we hope it, we know it."
Today I am grateful for hints of spring.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday February 17, 2009
My MRI's are under evaluation, and I should have a treatment recommendation this week. Originally I thought that the
existing bulging disc in my neck was the one that had herniated. It turns out that disc is still bulging, and more than
the year previous. It is the disc above that one that has herniated, and the one below it is breaking down.
If I can get something done with my neck, the other issues I have will be more tolerable.
Today I am grateful for talking to Dina.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday February 16, 2009
I am starting to long for Spring, as winter continues to take it's toll on my body. I love the snow, the cozy fires, and
staying inside...but the complications of it all are starting to outweigh the enjoyment of the season.
Today I am grateful for valentine's gifts.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday February 13, 2009
Very difficult afternoon today. One of my next door neighbor's dogs was hit by a car and killed. It happened right at the
end of my driveway. I thank the Lord I did not hear or see the accident. I am upset enough about it, anyway.
Milo, I'll miss you, your sneaky greetings to my house, and your green winter sweater.
Today I am grateful for Dr. Deel.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday February 10, 2009
The ice cleared from the front pond a few days ago, and I took a stroll through the yard. Sadly, I discovered that my large
black and white koi had died. I don't know what happened, but I hope the other fish remain healthy. I'd had him for a
few years, and he had grown from approximately 5" to over 12" long. I will really miss him.
Today I am grateful for a day spent with Frank.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday February 9, 2009
Mom and Dad have begun feeding the outdoor birds and I am amazed at how many are already coming back. Even with the heavy
snow we have had, they are everywhere. As many as eight blue jays have been seen at one time, and the woodpeckers are here,
too. I can see them in their yard from my front windows.
Today I am grateful for birds.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday February 8, 2009
"Rest is not idleness, and to lie on the grass under trees on a summer's day, listening to the murmur of the water, or watching the clouds float across the sky,
is by no means a waste of time."
Today I am grateful for the sound of a cat purring beside me.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday February 7, 2009
Recently, it seemed my body was beginning to function a bit better. I recognized that this was also during a time when
school was closed (no morning rush) and I had no appointments (days spent at home). I was able to work 30 minutes on wii fit
and actually get things done around the house.
Yesterday was dedicated to running some much needed errands. I was out about four hours. After I returned home, my body
crashed. The fibromyalgia had flared, and my neck and back pain hit pretty high levels. I rested in the late afternoon and
evening, hoping that I would feel much better this morning. Unfortunately, I felt worse. It is now clear to me that I must
take the next step- and look into what can be done for me...primarily to ease the fibro and then a plan for the herniated
disk in my neck. The back is a lower priority right now.
Today I am grateful for iphone lists.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday February 6, 2009
February is American Heart Month and today is National Wear Red Day, a component of Go Red For Women, the American Heart
Association’s national campaign to make women aware of their risk of heart disease and learn how to make heart-healthy choices
every day. Cardiovascular disease kills more women than the next five causes of death combined, including all forms of cancer.
Today I am grateful for sunshine.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday February 5, 2009
"If you are on the wrong road, progress means doing an about-turn and walking back to the right road; and in that case the man who turns back soonest
is the most progressive man."
Today I am grateful for a fixed rate mortgage.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday February 4, 2009
This time we have had a real snow storm settle in. It's still falling...and school was closed yesterday, today, and there is
no school tomorrow as well. Several inches have piled up now, but the temps are just too low for the girls to go out and play in
it this time.
Today I am grateful for health insurance.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday February 3, 2009
I was able to follow up with Bonnie from the American Cancer Society. I decided to donate almost all of my store inventory,
so they could use the items for fund raising, as all as the books for Reach to Recovery. It's nice to know that this donation
can help others. All of the items were picked up today.
Today I am grateful for a heavy white snow.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday February 2, 2009
The snow has returned and it looks like we might get a decent amount of snow this time. After the extreme highs (fifty five degrees)
and lows (negative six degrees), it would be nice to see a "normal winter" blanket of snow.
Today I am grateful for sports fun.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday January 31, 2009
"Courage is a special kind of knowledge: the knowledge of how to fear what ought to be feared and how not to fear what ought not to
be feared."
Today I am grateful for floating candles.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday January 30, 2009
The house is finally starting to get cleaned up and it feels nice to be sitting on the couch without a pile of "to do"
staring at me. Abigail helped go through several items for me, to donate for use by the American Cancer Society. Thanks,
Puff!
Today I am grateful for a much needed haircut.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday January 27, 2009 It's All Abigail: Dad gifted us with new Bibles yesterday. We all eagerly went through the pages, enjoying
the "feel" of them.
Abigail: "Mommy, guess what I was reading last night?"
Me: "Your new Bible?"
Abigail: "Yeah, but where was I reading??"
Me: "Job?"
Abigail: "Yes! How did you know?"
Me: "Well, I just guessed--- do you know what I was reading?"
Abigail: "Job?!!?"
Me: "Yes! I was reading the same book!"
Today I am grateful for a sense of accomplishment.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday January 25, 2009
Frank spent most of the day in bed. At times he gets severe headaches, and today he was hit hard. Thankfully, by tonight the pain
has eased some.
Today I am grateful for pinecone fire starters.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday January 24, 2009
For the past few weeks, I have been getting very little sleep. With each passing day, it began to have more of an impact
on my health. I am thrilled to write that I rested for the past two nights. What a relief. Even though "rest" for me means
waking multiple times, I didn't wake every few minutes as I was doing recently. I'll take that any day.
Today I am grateful for rest.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday January 23, 2009
I have always loved winter, but my body tolerates the cold less and less with each passing year. We had an unusually warm
day today. Although snow is supposed to be moving back in, it was 52 degrees. I took a few minutes to go outside and take
some photos. Mom-maw's lilac tree is already covered in buds, and new growth is surprisingly starting to show itself on
several perennials. It felt wonderful to breathe in the fresh air, after weeks of being indoors.
Today I am grateful for a stroll through the yard.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday January 22, 2009
Today I got the good news that Kelle is coming to visit in March. We don't get to see each other often--once a year or less--
so this is a real treat. She'll be here six days, and I can't wait!!
Today I am grateful for email surprises.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday January 21, 2009
Hope is believing...
That a rainbow
follows the rain,
that sunshine
outshines clouds,
that God understands
your every need.
Believe.
Have hope in Him.
Today I am grateful for the sounds of a cello.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday January 19, 2009 Hannah-ism:
The girls have been raised as healthy eaters. Hannah is so accustomed to wheat bread, she thinks white tastes bad...as does whole
milk. We had a new cereal this morning.
Hannah: "There's rabbit food in this cereal!"
Me: (surprised she made the comment) "Honey, it's not rabbit food."
Hannah: "Puffer, there's rabbit food in our cereal!"
Hannah: "But it tastes good. Can I have some more?"
Today I am grateful for roses.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday January 17, 2009
"I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still
know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing."
Today I am grateful for electricity.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday January 16, 2009
Frigid temperatures have set in. I don't think it has dropped this low in quite a few years. At eight o'clock this
morning, it was minus six degrees. As I write this, it is minus two. 9pm.
Today I am grateful for a warm home.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday January 15, 2009 Hannah-ism: At the WalMart checkout...
Hannah: "Look Mommy, a king size zero bar!"
Me: "I see! That's a big one, isn't it?"
Hannah: "We aren't kings, but we could share it!"
Today I am grateful for a friendly mail person.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday January 14, 2009
"Victory
is not
found in the
ease of our
circumstances
nor in the
strength of our
own resources,
but in the
presence of
the Lord who
is with us."
Today I am grateful for marathon movie day.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday January 12, 2009
The last of my test results are back...the bone density report. Unfortunately, my bone mass has decreased significantly in the past
fifteen months, since my last test. It's already been established that I cannot tolerate the osteoporosis medications, and when
I did take them, they were not effective. This falls under the "out of my control" heading. I will continue to focus on core strength
to support my skeleton, and the future is in God's hands.
Today I am grateful for games with Abigail.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday January 11, 2009
"Vision without action is a dream. Action without vision is simply passing the time. Action with Vision is making a positive difference."
Today I am grateful for 16th birthdays.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday January 10, 2009
Special prayers for Brother Frank Pittman. He has just recently been diagnosed with stage four cancer. Without divine
intervention, he will be heading "home" very soon.
Today I am grateful for dedicated evangelists.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday January 9, 2009
"Life asks us to make measurable progress in reasonable time. That’s why they make those fourth grade chairs so small – so you
won’t fit in them at age twenty-five!"
Today I am grateful for phone time with my brother.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday January 8, 2009
Freezing rain came in last evening then turned to snow. By this morning, there was a fair amount of snow around, and the
girls got a surprise 'no school' day.
Today I am grateful for an all day fire.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday January 7, 2009
Today I went to my neurologist to get the results from my MRI's and blood work. There were no new issues with the blood work,
and tests for lupus and lyme were negative. The MRI on my lumbar spine had no real changes, since it was just September when I was
told about the bulging disk that had developed. The condition of my cervical spine has changed. The bulging disc at C5-C6 has
now herniated. There is no need to rush to surgery or make any immediate treatment decisions. As long as I can manage pain
levels, I won't change my current routine.
Today I am grateful for UPS deliveries.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday January 5, 2009
"It is not what you say or hope or wish or intend but only what you do that counts. Your choices tell you unerringly
who you really are."
Today I am grateful for time with Hannah.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday January 4, 2009
Hannah seems to have had a relapse. She's been off of the medications for four days, but her cough is back and much worse.
In addition, her throat is getting sore again. She went back to the doctor today, and they did a repeat strep test and wrote
two more prescriptions. We'll get the strep results tomorrow.
Today I am grateful for the miracle of birth.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday January 2, 2009
Frank has driven to pick his mother up and bring her to our home. We don't get to see her often because of distance, but it thrills
my heart to see how my girls get so excited about seeing her. That's love.
Today I am grateful for grandmas visit.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday January 1, 2009
"For last year's words belong to last year's language
And next year's words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning."
A new year, a new look. The new banner is a powerful image for me. It represents many things-- God's amazing colors, nature,
and the path we travel in life. It disappears into the horizon, and we know not what the next step will be. Yet we trust,
and move forward. And so I trust....
