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Sunday December 31, 2006
Another year draws to a close. As we can all agree, time passes faster as we age. In looking back at the year, I see it as a
year of change. A year of shifting priorities. A year of physical trial and yet a year of triumph as well.
"Follow effective action with quiet reflection. From the quiet reflection will come even more effective action."
Today I am grateful for settled peace.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday December 30, 2006
We spent Christmas Evening at Mom and Dad's house. Here's a shot of the girls and their cousins (Corey & Kristen), also known as
the grandchildren.
Hannah-ism: I always tell the girls that I love them "all the way to the moon and back" by way of a little song I made up.
Recently she started trying to think of things that would measure her love even greater.
Hannah: "I love you past Pluto and that's past the moon!"
Hannah: "I love you past the numbers and they never end!"
Me: "I love you more!"
Today I was given
this note.
Translation: I ♥ you so much that I can't explain it to you. I love you.
And on the side: Write a note back
Today I am grateful for love notes.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday December 29, 2006
"I make the most of all that comes and the least of all that goes."
Today I am grateful for taking a fifteen minute rest.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday December 28, 2006
"I do believe it is possible to create, even without ever writing a word or painting a picture, by simply molding one's
inner life. And that too is a deed."
Today I am grateful for honesty.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday December 27, 2006
Hannah-ism: I sense an ulterior motive here...
Hannah: (to Abigail) "Let me see your foot. You have a beautiful foot."
Hannah: (again to Abigail) "Let me see your hand. You have a beautiful hand."
Hannah: (to me) "Mommy, you are just beautiful all over!"
Today I am grateful for "love emergencies".
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday December 26, 2006
"Attempt easy tasks as if they were difficult, and difficult as if they were easy; in the one case that confidence may not fall asleep,
in the other that it may not be dismayed."
Today I am grateful for smiling children.
Thank you God, for another day.
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I regularly review our website statistics, and am happy to see that we have readers from all across the United States and many
countries across the world. From small towns to metropolitan areas, a variety of people come to visit, many each and every day. Several find their way through search engines such
as Google, MSN, etc. Those search statistics also provide the location of our visitors as well (just like with any site you visit), and also the search term they use to find Pink Ribbon Miracle.
This helps us tailor the site based on what information is most desired. Over the past year, people have "searched" for breast cancer information, and found this site. I am thankful that we continue to
be a resource for those in need.
There are some of you that continue to always use a search engine for "Pink Ribbon Miracle". Consider bookmarking
www.pinkribbonmiracle.com---
it will save you some time and doesn't change any site statistic. We still get results from all of our site "hits", and you can find us
faster.
Monday December 25, 2006
Today I am grateful for the birth of Jesus.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday December 24, 2006
As families come together today, and children are tucked safely into bed, many eagerly awaiting Santa's arrival---it's a time to be thankful.
To all of you who faithfully read this site, I thank you. Your immense support does not go unappreciated.
Today I am grateful for family time and the Trent version of "Deal or No Deal". (Hi Poppy!)
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday December 23, 2006
"Hope is like a road in the country; there was never a road, but when many people walk on it, the road comes into existence."
Today I am grateful for hot tea to soothe a sore throat.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday December 22, 2006
"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or touched...they must be felt with the heart."
I adore the wonder of Santa through a child's eyes.
Hannah-ism: After looking at that picture of herself with Santa, she started laughing.
Hannah: "Look Mommy! The way I put my hair behind my ears and pushed them out, I look like an elf. It's cool!!"
Today I am grateful for rain.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday December 21, 2006
"You can’t think your way into acting positively, but you can act your way into thinking positively."
Today I am grateful for hanging out with Mom and Dad.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday December 20, 2006
I'm now on medication along with Abigail. I thought it was probably inevitable that this would happen. Hopefully we'll be on the
mend in time to really enjoy the holiday.
And when you're sick, isn't this what you want?
It's All Abigail: I walked into the office last night, to find a gift from
Abigail. The words on the outside mean more than the contents. That's my girl.
Today I am grateful for Bath & Body Works lotion.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday December 19, 2006
Abigail's fever continues, and her throat has become increasingly sore. Hopefully the meds will begin to take effect in the next 24
hours. So far Hannah and Frank are not showing any signs of illness, but by tonight my throat is beginning to hurt. We'll see what tomorrow
brings.
Today I am grateful for my annual Christmas shopping trip with Dad.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday December 18, 2006
Abigail is sick again. Yesterday she developed a fever and chills. Motrin didn't take the edge off of the fever, and she was awake in the
night. I kept her home from school and before noon her condition took a down turn. She became listless, her speech slurred and her eyes
were very weak. She kept saying her head was so hot, and at the same time she was feeling so cold that her teeth were literally
chattering. Her body was aching and her head hurt. I made an appointment and took her to the doctor.
Driving down, she asked if there was a doctor any closer, as she continued to moan. By the time she was in Dr. Thomson's office,
her temperature had reached 104.5°. He felt she was showing every symptom of the flu, but a glance in her throat also revealed
a lot of inflammation and some blistering. (Abigail had said her throat was only slightly sore.) He did a swab for strep and
also a nasal swab for the flu. Both tests were rushed stat through the lab. In the meantime, they gave her a strong dose of
Tylenol to try and bring the fever down.
As we waited for the test results, my big girl curled up in my lap and slept. At that moment, my heart broke for her pain. It's been
a very long time since I have seen her so sick, so vulnerable. I stroked her hair, and watched her sleep.
The test results came back, and she has strep again. That's three times since October. She does not have the flu, and for that I
am very grateful. She has a stronger antibiotic this time, and she is taking both Motrin and Tylenol to break her fever. By this
evening, she was feeling cooler, although her temperature is still elevated.
Today I am grateful for a beautiful eight year old who still finds comfort on Mommy's lap.
I'm also grateful for the comfort I feel as she lays there.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday December 17, 2006
"To keep your character intact you cannot stoop to filthy acts. It makes it easier to stoop the next time."
Today I am grateful for a wonderful Christmas play.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday December 16, 2006
After our nightly devotion, Hannah said the most important sentence we could ever want to hear.
"I want to ask Jesus to come into my heart."
Today I am grateful for the gift of salvation, so simple a child can understand.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday December 15, 2006
"Never seem more learned than the people you are with. Wear your learning like a pocket watch and keep it hidden. Do not pull it out to
count the hours, but give the time when you are asked."
Today I am grateful for wrapped presents under the tree.
Thank you God, for another day.
MEDICAL NEWS:
• U.S. breast cancer rates declined 7.2 percent in 2003
• Experts believe drop is due to reduced use of hormone replacement therapy
• Drop means about 14,000 fewer cases were actually diagnosed
In a startling turnaround, breast cancer rates in the United States dropped dramatically in 2003, and experts said they believe
it is because many women stopped taking hormone pills.
The 7.2 percent decline came a year after a big federal study linked menopause hormones to a higher risk of breast cancer,
heart disease and other problems. Within months, millions of women stopped taking estrogen and progestin pills.
A new analysis of federal cancer statistics, presented Thursday at a breast cancer conference in Texas, revealed the drop in
tumors.
About 200,000 cases of breast cancer had been expected in 2003; the drop means that about 14,000 fewer cases were actually
diagnosed.
Because breast cancer takes years to form, experts think that withdrawing hormones mostly caused small tumors that had been
growing to stop or shrink, making them no longer detectable on mammograms. Whether this is true or will result in fewer cases
over the long run will take more time to tell.
The next set of cancer statistics, for 2004, is due out in April.
Thursday December 14, 2006
It was a cold morning when Hannah's team was scheduled for team pictures. Unfortunately, not many members came out. They were quite a
motley crew but had lots of fun.
Meet Coach William and the Smurfs
and the soccer sisters.
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Today I am grateful for sweatshirts.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday December 13, 2006
"So many people go out and spend money trying to get tattoos or piercings to try and represent something while at the same time
so many women carry these battle scars of growth and maternity. It's something that nature gives women almost like a rite of
passage to be carried proudly like tribal markings."
Today I am grateful for acceptance.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday December 12, 2006
"Once we believe in ourselves, we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight, or any experience that reveals the human spirit."
Today I am grateful for a completed shopping list.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday December 11, 2006
It's this time of year.
My Dad and husband love Ferrero Rocher. It's a running joke in our family--we all call them "Furry Roaches" instead of the
proper french pronunciation. We've done it for so long, it's almost impossible for us to use the real name!
Today I am grateful for family fun.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday December 10, 2006
"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has
been opened for us."
Today I am grateful for Abigail's proud role in the youth choir.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday December 9, 2006
"Are you going up to heaven with me?" --Bobby D. Steele
Today I am grateful for his successful surgery.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday December 8, 2006
Our unseasonably warm temperatures fell rapidly yesterday and by evening everything was covered in a blanket of snow. Today was
our first snow day from school. The main tree is now up and decorated, although a little later in the season than I would have
liked. It felt great to have a day that I did not have to go anywhere.
It's All Abigail: "I just gotta be me"
I later discovered, while we were eating breakfast that she had even more layers than I thought, including two pair of
pants! Meet (for lack of a better word) Alternative Abigail.
Today I am grateful for staying inside on a cold day.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday December 7, 2006
"There's a lot of things to think about, but nothing to worry about."
Hannah-ism: I've always let my girls make their own clothing choices on days where we are just staying at home.
They also do their own thing by decorating their rooms, on the bulletin boards and doors. It's fun to let them express
themselves and see how they interpret what is "cool". I'm not sure where Hannah got her inspiration today.
Words won't work for this one, it has to be a visual--- meet Hip Hop Hannah.
Today I am grateful for creative expression.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday December 6, 2006
In July, I posted some startling statistics on childhood obesity. As a follow-up: For the first time in history, our children's
life expectancy is shorter than ours. Please, if you are a parent with children at home, take care of their health. Monitor
the foods they eat, the foods you buy. Too many children are being set up to fail and suffer from diabetes and heart issues. School cafeterias
mostly have terrible food choices, and PE is quickly becoming a thing of the past. As parents, we need to affect what we can.
Although I was small and active as a child and teenager, I gained a tremendous amount of weight in my twenties, simply by choosing to eat unhealthy, quick foods
because I was always on the go. By the time I turned thirty, I weighed 210 pounds. Although I lost about forty pounds, I gained again and found myself at
203 pounds the day I discovered I was pregnant with my first child. Once pregnant, I made a decision that I would not allow my
child to suffer any embarrassment by having an overweight Mom. I also didn't want her to ever deal with weight issues herself. (In hindsight, I clearly see that my entire community is made up of mostly
overweight adults) I changed my eating habits, and left the hospital after giving birth weighing less than when I first conceived.
In addition, I suffered gall bladder attacks during my pregnancy and had surgery when Abigail was only seven weeks old. Over the following months,
I continued to lose weight, as my only focus was eating foods that were good for my body. At no time did I have a goal weight or
size. Those were goals that would not help me maintain long term. It had to be a focus on health.
After a second pregnancy, cancer, chemo, and ten months of tamoxifen (I came off of it when I ended up having to have a hysterectomy), I had gained about thirty pounds.
A few more adjustments in my nutritional approach and I was able to lose that weight and a bit more. Today, at age 43, I am more than eighty pounds lighter than my highest non-pregnant weight.
My goal is to remain healthy for myself and my family. I want to model the eating behavior that my children need to grow up with. I've done this their
entire life, and it has been one of the best decisions I ever made. They understand healthy eating. I am happy when I provide my children choices,
and they choose the healthy option. They also know that portion size and moderation is very important. Total restriction on
items can backfire long term. Children will want sweets. Why not make them as special treat, but not a daily ritual? We talk about foods that are good for the inside of their bodies. Not once have we discussed size, weight, or appearance. We have to be careful to focus on health, and never body
images like those portrayed by our media. Teen anorexic numbers are on the rise, and our daughters need positive reinforcement to feel good about themselves.
It's not too late to start. As a parent, we are responsible for keeping our children safe. That includes making sure we feed them responsibly.
It's never too late. And if that means you have to change your own habits, it can only help you, too. The life you save may be your childs.
Today I am grateful for healthy children.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday December 5, 2006
"None of us will ever accomplish anything excellent or commanding except when he listens to this whisper which is heard by him alone."
Today I am grateful for laughter.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday December 4, 2006
Since soccer started late this year, basketball quickly followed. Abigail started practice last week. (Hannah has another year
to wait for this sport because six is the minimum age to play. Tball and soccer start at age four.) Between practices, games, and Church,
it looks like we'll have something going on every night until mid-January. Right now she is scheduled for eleven games.
Hannah with her U6 soccer trophy for her team, The Smurfs
Abigail and her U10 soccer trophy for The Mutiny
A Monday smile.
Today I am grateful for early morning shopping without crowds.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday December 3, 2006
Eleven years ago today, I had my first date with the man that is now my soul mate, my husband, the father of my two children, and the
only man in the world I could give all of myself to, freely. I love you, Angel.
Hannah-ism: We were playing the game "I Spy" together.
Hannah: "I spy, with my little eye, something that is pink-ish, and purple-ish, and blonde-ish."
Me: "Pink-ish, purple-ish, and blonde-ish?!?!"
Hannah: (with a giggle) "Your hair!!"
Today I am grateful for a lit Christmas tree.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday December 2, 2006
"The charity that is a trifle to us can be precious to others."
Today I am grateful for the fireplace.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday December 1, 2006
It's time for a follow-up with Dr. Fulp, my gastroenterologist. We are trying to work out a phone consultation rather than
making the three hour drive. I have definitely seen improvement and my stomach doesn't hurt every single day anymore.
I have made a combination of changes that seem to be working in my favor:
I take a normal multi-vitamin, but no longer take mega doses of any vitamin whatsoever.
I switched from Actonel, the once per week osteoporosis medication, to Boniva, taken once per month.
I do not take supplemental calcium. (This is far from ideal, but necessary in my case)
I dropped the daily fibromyalgia medication, and now take pain medication on an as needed basis, or if I know I am in a situation
that will cause a flare-up. I also make sure I get at least fifteen minutes in the afternoon to put my feet up and rest. Lifestyle
changes are key to managing fibromyalgia. I've missed Curves recently for many reasons, but will be returning soon.
Although I believe that moderation is the key to daily eating, my stomach has more limitations than the average person, and
there are foods I just simply cannot tolerate. I was already a healthy eater, and I am now also on a very high fiber diet. Many of the
other dietary changes that were required were already part of my healthy eating plan anyway. (For example, I don't eat fried foods)
I do eat at least three fruits per day, but I have yet to find a vegetable I can tolerate. This is also not ideal, but it works.
Breakfast is usually Fiber One, followed by fruit. At lunch, I eat albacore tuna on whole wheat, double fiber bread, with light mayo. Dinner
varies. I haven't had red meat in many months. I eat an average of five to six times per day, rather than three larger meals. Normally I eat
something every three hours, and nothing after 6:30pm or so. In addition, I still log my foods daily, to make sure I am getting an
adequate amount of calories, as well as making sure I am meeting other nutritional requirements.
I still have bad days. I still have problems, but I am now at a place where it is more manageable than before. I will never be able to just eat freely,
of anything that I want. I accept that without regrets. The key now is to slowly test small amounts of other foods, to see if I
can build a tolerance and expand the variety of foods I eat. Traveling is difficult, and I usually just carry a bag of "my"
foods with me. My system seems to be very sensitive to any change in routine.
Today I am grateful for no longer staring at the clock nightly, waiting for it to be "late enough" to just go to bed and sleep off the pain.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday November 30, 2006
"We either make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same."
Today I am grateful for this.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday November 29, 2006
"Our achievements are shaped by the terrain of our lives and the strength of the foundations we set. In building the life
we've imagined, we must be true to our beliefs, dare to be ethical, and strive to be honorable. For integrity is the highest
ground to which we can aspire."
Today I am grateful for Tristan's successful surgery.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday November 28, 2006
The new Charlotte's Web will be coming to theatres December 15. All of the current press reminds me of the original release, in 1973.
I was ten years old. During my childhood, I only saw two movies...Charlotte's Web and Benji.
My very first life memory of feeling a deep sadness, or hurt, was when I saw Charlotte's Web. As much as I liked the movie, I was wounded
that Charlotte died in the end. I can clearly remember the hollow feeling in my chest, and I carried that with me for many days.
Today I am grateful for experiencing little sadness in my youth.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday November 27, 2006
Mother Nature must be confused. It was almost 70 degrees today. We have had warm enough temperatures lately that the phlox are beginning
to bloom, and an white anemone unfolded itself as well. I actually walked through the front on Sunday afternoon in short
sleeves. Thankfully, the pond fish seem to realize it continues to be time for them to still themselves and not come up for
food.
Today I am grateful for surprise hugs.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday November 26, 2006
"One day in retrospect the years of struggle will strike you as the most beautiful."
"To our dream weavers, soulful singers, and ice-cream eaters. To our hope-filled healers, freedom fighters, boundary breakers
and dance all nighters. To our laugh out louders, mercy givers, band-aid bearers and peaceful wishers. We celebrate with you,
our survivor sisters."
Hannah-ism: Hannah was playing with an assortment of small plastic animals, patiently balancing them to
stand on the carpet.
Hannah: "This is a volcano. I have to put a fence around it in case it explodes."
Me: "Good idea."
Hannah: (showing me a larger plastic zebra) This is a Daddy zebra. He drinks from the volcano."
Me: "That's one pretty tough zebra!"
Hannah: "I know. That's why all the others are watching him."
amazing Daddy zebra
the crowd observes
Today I am grateful for a child's imagination.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday November 25, 2006
A picture is worth a thousand words.
Today I am grateful for the never-ending awe of nature's beauty.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday November 24, 2006
"The first question which the priest and the Levite asked was: 'If I stop to help this man, what will happen to me?' But... the good
Samaritan reversed the question: 'If I do not stop to help this man, what will happen to him?' "
Praying for you, Mike.
Today I am grateful for 9-1-1.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday November 23, 2006
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
I am thankful for so many things, among them--salvation, my spared life, my family, a warm home, food to eat, and the many blessings
that we often take for granted.
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Today I am grateful for waking up in a cozy bed.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday November 22, 2006
Nature's breathtaking beauty
Today I am grateful for little girls' singing voices.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday November 21, 2006
"The gain in self-confidence of having accomplished a tiresome labour is immense."
Today I am grateful for healing.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday November 20, 2006
While on chemo, I chose not to wear scarves, hats, or a wig. (I did wear a knit cap to bed, because I was often cold at night)
I didn't feel that I needed to hide my hair loss, or disguise my disease. I acknowledge that not all women feel the same way.
I needed to do what was right for me...and that was to be up front and open. I felt no shame, nor responsibility for my illness.
I am looking forward to receiving this book which features women photographed beautifully, with their bald heads exposed.
click image above to view book details from Amazon.com
"Turning Heads: Portraits of Grace, Inspiration, and Possibilities"
From Publishers Weekly:
The spark for this collection of gorgeous and inspiring photographs of women who've become bald from chemotherapy was film
and television writer Hunsicker's initial reaction to her own cancer diagnosis: the fear of becoming bald trumped her fears
of mere death. The resulting book is powerful medicine, and not just for women undergoing cancer treatment. Shot by 59 leading
photographers, such as Duane Michals, the book features women of all shapes, sizes, colors and nationalities, and they
illustrate an important point: their subjects' distinctive talents, interests, identities and personalities. In these bold
and imaginative photos, a Florida Supreme Court Justice presides over a court session, a designer lounges astride an elephant
in fuchsia formal wear, a doctor's face grins from the center of a rising moon. Short statements accompanying the photographs
are equally eloquent. Model/writer Sharon Fryda Blynn describes overhearing three young men making fun of her during a commuter
train ride. As they exit, one of them says, "God forgive me if this woman has cancer." She tells him and witnesses his shame.
"I was thinking," she writes, "just for that brief second, I pushed a button... so that... the next time they see a bald woman,
they might... smile and say, 'You look beautiful today,' and make her feel better."
Today I am grateful for the liberating experience of being bald.
Thank you God, for another day.
MEDICAL NEWS:The FDA is allowing silicone breast implants to be sold again, 14 years after they were removed from the
market by the same agency over questions of safety. The approved silicone implants are made by two companies, Inamed Aesthetics,
now a part of Allergan, and Mentor.
The FDA says these implants are approved "for breast reconstruction in women of all ages and breast augmentation in women ages
22 and older."
Sunday November 19, 2006
"Pain is a part of being alive, and we need to learn that. Pain does not last forever, nor is it necessarily unbeatable, and
we need to be taught that."
Hannah-ism: Twice a year, we go through both girls closets--clothing and toys. They have been taught
charitable giving. There are children who need toys, children who have much less than we do. Today Hannah started going
through her closet. When I walked in, there was a mound of toys on the floor.
Me: "Is this what you are giving to other children?"
Hannah: "Yep."
Me: "Wow, that's a lot. Are you sure you want to give this much?"
Hannah: "Mommy, I have a kind, giving heart. Kids might not have these things like me."
Me: "That's very nice of you, Hannah. It makes Jesus happy, too."
Hannah: "Can I go through my whole room, to find more stuff?"
Me: "Sure, honey. Whatever you want to do."
Today I am grateful for unselfish young hearts.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday November 18, 2006
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"Daughters"
I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on her steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me
Fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same she's been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now she's left
Cleaning up the mess he made
So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
Boys, you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong
And boys soldier on
But boys would be gone without the warmth from
A womans good, good heart
On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world
So fathers, be good to your daughters
Daughters will love like you do
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers, be good to your daughters too
(John Mayer)
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Today I am grateful for black cherry cough drops.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday November 17, 2006
It was inevitable. Another trip to the pediatrician. This time for Abigail. In addition to all of Hannah's
symptoms, she has had a sore throat for two days. They've done another culture to see if strep has returned. (We all
had it about five weeks ago) I already feel the nag of those same symptoms myself, with the exception of pink eye.
Today I am grateful for hot tea.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday November 16, 2006
"Most people are so busy knocking themselves out trying to do everything they think they should do,
they never get around to do what they want to do."
Today I am grateful for motherhood.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday November 15, 2006
After a visit to the doctor this morning, Hannah has pink eye and a viral infection, complete with congestion and a terrible cough.
Three medicines later, and she cannot return to school until Friday at the earliest.
Hannah-ism:
Me: "Let me clean your eyes, ok?"
Hannah: "It's just crumbs, Mommy."
Me: "It's because you have pink eye and we want to get you better."
Hannah: "It's crumbs. They live on my eyelashes like it's their house!"
Today I am grateful for Dr. Thomson.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday November 14, 2006
"You are not here merely to make a living. You are here in order to enable the world to live more amply, with greater vision,
with a finer spirit of hope and achievement. You are here to enrich the world, and you impoverish yourself if you forget the
errand."
Today I am grateful for Enya's Celts.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday November 13, 2006
Nothing but raw talent. No photoshop, no tweaking. A flashlight in the darkness and a lot of talent:
Josh Ellis, photographer
Today I am grateful for a friend who will know exactly what will make me smile.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday November 12, 2006
"To have that sense of one's intrinsic worth which constitutes self-respect is potentially to have everything."
It's All Abigail: We were eating Sunday breakfast together, as we do every week. (Wheat pancakes and muffins)
The oven door had been left slightly open, after the muffins were finished baking. Sable, our curious cat, walked toward the
oven.
Frank: "Sable, don't get near there. You'll get burned, silly cat."
Abigail: "Yeah, Sable, don't go near there. You could turn into....(long pause) cat meat."
Me: (as we are all laughing hysterically) "CAT MEAT?!?!?"
Abigail: "Well, what else could it be? Turkeys turn into turkey, fish turn into fish sticks. Cats must be cat meat, there's
nothing else it could be!"
Today I am grateful for muddy soccer days.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday November 11, 2006
"This nation will remain the land of the free only so long as it is the home of the brave."
In honor of our veterans, our seniors who have lived and seen the horror, our boys who quickly became men, I thank you.
Hannah honors our heroes
Abigail shows her pride
Today I am grateful for school children being taught to respect our veterans.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday November 10, 2006
"Hope is necessary in every condition. The miseries of poverty, sickness and captivity would, without this comfort,
be insupportable."
Today I am grateful for late season raspberries.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday November 9, 2006
"Do not resent growing old, many are denied the privilege."
Today I am grateful for the appreciation of age.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday November 8, 2006
On September 28 I placed a quote in my journal that was actually from a song I love called "Proud". As I was
going through the Avon Walk pictures today, I was thinking about special moments from that weekend. Perhaps one of
the most powerful for me was one I didn't write in it's entirety, until now.
On Sunday, we were making our final steps of the two day, 26.2 mile walk. Rounding the corner to the stadium, we could hear the
cheers from the crowd and also the loud music from the stage...awaiting our arrival. Just as I made the last turn, "Proud" was
blasting from the speakers, specifically this line- "What have you done today to make you feel proud?". I looked at Kelle and told
her I had just placed that very quote in my journal, three weeks previous. I will never forget that very moment, and how the music
and lyrics touched the core of my soul.
If you aren't familiar with this song, I highly recommend a visit to iTunes for a listen. Here are the lyrics:
PROUD
by Heather Small
I look into the window of my mind
Reflections of the fears I know I've left behind
I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
It's never too late to try
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
Still so many answers I don't know
Realise that to question is how we grow
So I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
It's never too late to try
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
We need a change
Do it today
I can feel my spirit rising
We need a change
So do it today
'Cause I can see a clear horizon
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
So what have you done today to make you feel proud?
'Cause you could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
So what have you done today to make you feel proud?
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
What have you done today
You could be so many people
Just make that break for freedom
So what have you done today to make you feel proud?
*also used as the theme song on NBC's The Biggest Loser*
Today I am grateful for powerful lyrics.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday November 7, 2006
"You are not here merely to make a living. You are here in order to enable the world to live more amply, with greater vision,
with a finer spirit of hope and achievement. You are here to enrich the world, and you impoverish yourself if you forget the
errand."
Exercise your right, let your voice be heard...VOTE!
Today I am grateful for Frank's day off.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday November 6, 2006
"Truth is often eclipsed but never extinguished."
Today I am grateful for MooCow Guy's surprise phone call.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday November 5, 2006
Another year older. I was greeted this morning with wheat pancakes (my favorite) and Frank had even cooked a heart into
the top one as a special treat. Abigail gave me two very special coupons:
birthday treat one
birthday treat two
Mom and Dad took me out for lunch, then it was time for a quick change and we headed to the soccer fields. Both girls
played games today.
sister watches Abigail play
Today I am grateful for easy bake oven surprises.
Thank you God, for another day.
birthday cake
blowing out the candles, note Abigail "helping" subconsciously
that's my girl
Saturday November 4, 2006
"Treat people as if they were what they ought to be and you will help them become what they are capable of becoming."
Today I am grateful for creative little minds making paper clothing.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday November 3, 2006
2007 Walk Dates are now official!
2007 Avon Walk for Breast Cancer
Washington DC May 5-6, 2007
Boston May 19-20, 2007
Chicago June 2-3, 2007
Denver June 23-24, 2007
San Francisco July 7-8, 2007
Los Angeles September 15-16, 2007
New York October 6-7, 2007
Charlotte October 20-21, 2007
2007 Komen 3Day Walk for Breast Cancer
Boston August 3-5, 2007
Chicago August 10-12, 2007
Cleveland August 17-19, 2007
Twin Cities August 24-26, 2007
Seattle September 7-9, 2007
Michigan September 28-30, 2007
Philadelphia October 5-7, 2007
Atlanta October 12-14, 2007
Tampa Bay October 19-21, 2007
Dallas/Ft. Worth October 26-28, 2007
Arizona November 2-4, 2007
San Diego November 9-11, 2007
Today I am grateful for children who ask to go to Revival, instead of asking to stay home.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday November 2, 2006
Xerox is sponsoring a site, www.letssaythanks.com,
where you can pick out a thank you card-- and they will print and send it to a soldier who is currently serving in Iraq.
Please send a card. It's FREE, and it only takes a moment.
Regardless of politics, regardless of pro- or anti- war sentiment, our troops need
our support. Won't you help?
INSPIRATION~ Shaya's true story:
At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning-disabled children,
the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be
forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated
staff, he offered a question: "When not interfered with by outside
influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son,
Shaya, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things
as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?"
The audience was stilled by the query.
The father continued. "I believe that when a child like Shaya, physically and
mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true
human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat
that child."
Then he told the following story:
Shaya and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shaya knew were
playing baseball. Shaya asked, "Do you think they'll let me play?" Shaya's
father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shaya on their
team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play,
it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be
accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.
Shaya's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not
expecting much) if Shaya could play. The boy looked around for guidance and
said, "We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I
guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth
inning."
Shaya struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a
team shirt. His Father watched with a small tear in his eye and warmth in
his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the
bottom of the eighth inning, Shaya's team scored a few runs but was still
behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shaya put on a glove and
played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was
obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from
ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the
ninth inning, Shaya's team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases
loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shaya was scheduled to be
next at bat.
At this juncture, do they let Shaya bat and give away their chance to win the
game?
Surprisingly, Shaya was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but
impossible because Shaya didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much
less connect with the ball.
However, as Shaya stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the
other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shaya's life, moved
in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shaya could at least make
contact. The first pitch came and Shaya swung clumsily and missed. The
pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shaya.
As the pitch came in, Shaya swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball
right back to the pitcher.
The game would now be over. The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and
could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shaya would have been
out and that would have been the end of the game.
Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out
of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started
yelling, "Shaya, run to first! Run to first!" Never in his life had Shaya ever
run that far, but he made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline,
wide-eyed and startled.
Everyone yelled, "Run to second, run to second!" Catching his breath, Shaya
awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the
base. By the time Shaya rounded towards second base, the right fielder had
the ball ... the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to
be the hero for his team. He could have thrown the ball to the
second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so
he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's
head. Shaya ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him
circled the bases toward home.
All were screaming, "Shaya, Shaya, Shaya, all the Way Shaya"
Shaya reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by
turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, "Run to third!
Shaya, run to third!"
As Shaya rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on
their feet screaming, "Shaya, run home! Run home!" Shaya ran to home, stepped
on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the
game for his team.
"That day", said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face,
"the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity
into this world".
Shaya didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never
forgotten being the hero and making his father so happy, and coming home and
seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!
Today I am grateful for belief in the human spirit of kindness.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday November 1, 2006
"As we express our gratitude, we must never forget that the highest appreciation is not to utter words, but to live by them."
Today I am grateful for a loyal friend.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday October 31, 2006
As the sky grows dark
and the moon glows bright,
As strange creatures and critters
appear in the night,
As the goblins growl
and the werewolves whine,
Hope that Halloween
sends a CHILL up your spine!
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
behave tonight!
Today I am grateful for daughters who understand.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday October 30, 2006
"We didn't lose the game; we just ran out of time." :)
Although not the case, I still like the quote. A week off and then hopefully we'll come out on top
in the next one!
Today I am grateful for sisters.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday October 29, 2006
Are you ready for some football?
Or maybe U6 soccer?
Hannah-ism: I was sitting on the couch, talking on the telephone. The phone was at my left ear, and
Hannah entered the room. Quietly she climbed up on the couch and moved closer and closer to my right side. Soon she had
her ear against mine, the opposite side of my head from the telephone.
Me: "What are you doing?"
Hannah: "Trying to listen and see who you are talking to!"
It's All Abigail: I was in the laundry room, when the washer lid fell and hit the edge of my thumb. I called out
"ouch" loudly. No one from my family came to check on me, as I continued to repeat "ouch!". Finally, Abigail came to see
what was going on.
Abigail: "What happened, mommy?"
Me: "The washer lid fell and the caught my thumb, right under the nail."
Abigail: "Oh. That's too bad you aren't a starfish. You could just grow a new arm."
Today I am grateful for this face.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday October 28, 2006
"There can be no happiness if the things we believe in are different from the things we do."
Today I am grateful for yogurt raisins.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday October 27, 2006
Sunday's visit to "see" Sam Mills:
I have always been a Carolina Panthers fan, especially since I lived in Charlotte two different times in my life,
and was there when the Panthers were an expansion team. When Sam Mills was diagnosed with cancer, I felt a connection with him, and sent him a gift
and letter. He was kind enough to telephone me, and I will be forever grateful for that conversation, and the gift I received
days later. I cannot put into words how I feel about this strong, amazing, caring, giving man.
I was looking forward to taking Frank, my girls, Kelle and Diane to see the stadium, and specifically Sam's memorial statue.
Although the memorial lists his years as a player, he became part of the coaching staff, until cancer took his life.
There is so much personal symbolism there for me, both with the Panthers and Sam. After closing ceremonies on Sunday, we gathered
our things and went to the Bank of America Stadium. Frank, Kelle and Diane were struck with the realism of the memorial, especially
Sam's eyes. He looks so real. Pictures are worth a thousand words though---
Bank of America Stadium<--click to view
amazing panther <--click to view
front shot of panther <--click to view
Sam Mills <--click to view
how fitting this is <--click to view
signature, number 51 <--click to view
helmet <--click to view
Sam and the crew <--click to view
Sam and the girls <--click to view
my favorite shot <--click to view
Today I am grateful for blowing leaves.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday October 26, 2006
"Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough, and more. It turns denial into acceptance,
chaos to order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend.
Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today, and creates a vision for tomorrow."
Today I am grateful for Larry Mull.
Thank you God, for another day.
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Wednesday October 25, 2006
"The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled.
For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching
for different ways or truer answers."
Today I am grateful for sunshine.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday October 24, 2006
"When you get into a tight place and it seems that you can't go on, hold on — for that's just the place and
the time that the tide will turn."
Today I am grateful for camaraderie.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday October 23, 2006
Today we spent the day hanging out and catching up, as well as resting sore muscles. Diane went to the doctor
for a sinus infection, and Kelle will be leaving very early tomorrow morning. And by the way, it is officially snowing here!
Today I am grateful for little girls snuggling around Kelle during nightly devotion.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday October 22, 2006
Frank, the girls and I got up at 6am. I was a bit stiff and sore, but didn't feel overly fatigued. I didn't want to
over commit and risk not being able to attend closing, but decided I would go to camp and start the route for the day. I could
stop at any point, and then meet up later. The route was opening at 7:30, so we headed out and arrived at 7:20. I had called
Kelle and Diane and met them at the camp exit.
What a difference a day makes. The early morning temperature was a bit warmer than yesterday (still quite cold), but it was raining! I had not packed
well for this walk, because I truly believed that one mile would be my limit. I did bring my waist pack, thankfully. I only
brought one pair of socks for each day, no rain gear, no body glide, no "normal walk required supplies". I did have a nylon
hooded jacket that was fleece lined, and decided to wear that. I had not brought a ball cap, so the hood was a necessity.
The first stop was 1.7 miles, and off we went, with Frank driving by our side.
As I walked, my muscles loosened and I felt pretty good. It was uncomfortable to have my peripheral vision blocked by the hood,
but I had no choice. Frank drove ahead, and by now we were accustomed to playing "Where's Waldo", trying to spot Frank out. I had walked just
over a mile when I felt a familiar pain on the top of my left foot. I had experienced it a couple years before, but once I switched
to Asics I hadn't had it happen since then. We stopped at a lot where Frank was parked, and I re-laced my left shoe. Thankfully,
my salesperson for the shoes a couple years ago had taught me some lacing techniques to compensate for various issues. During this strop, Frank also became
personal physician as he ran into Walgreen's and bought more cough medicine for Diane.
Dr. Frank <--click to view
We continued on, and I still felt the pain, but not as intense. The bruise was already there, but I believed in time the pain
would lessen. Shortly after, we were at rest stop one, 1.7 miles down. I MADE IT.
After another slight adjustment with my shoe, we started out again. The rain was a downer, our feet were soaked, but it was good
to feel the outside air.
3.9 miles. I MADE IT.
5.9 miles. I MADE IT.
Yesterday I had made a few Harley men from the motorcycle crew my friends. One in particular had dipped me
backwards for a picture when it was pointed out that my husband was sitting in the car, just a few yards behind us. We had
a laugh about it, and throughout the rest of the walk, I'd call him out. He'd laugh and ask where my husband was. It was all
done in fun. No one can beat the safety crew on Harleys, and we look forward to hearing the roar of their bikes and seeing
them every year.
7.6 miles. I MADE IT.
Last night I knew there was no way I could expect to pull off another thirteen mile day. By lunch, with just over five miles
left, I wanted to finish. But I wasn't sure that I could. The rain had let up, and I ate albacore tuna from a pouch, more food that Frank had brought into
lunch for me, so I wouldn't have to eat anything I was concerned about. I had packed and traveled with plenty of my food.
During the walk I also ate bananas, yogurt raisins, pretzels and peanut butter. I watered down the gatorade as much as was reasonable, to
further protect my stomach.
a wet lunch <--click to view
9.6 miles. I MADE IT.
By this point, the rain had stopped and at times the sun was peeking through. I was so close, but I was getting tired. I believed
I could finish it now, but worried about not being able to immediately rest afterwards. We would be in a holding area, waiting for
closing ceremonies. Our pace was well ahead of where we needed to be. We walked on.
we took this to prove we saw him first, behind the sign <--click to view
11.0 miles. I MADE IT.
Just over two miles to go. The longest two miles of the day. We walked through a beautiful park, and at the end, pulled down a dirt
road, was Frank and the girls. We're still not sure how he sneaked in there for us. THAT'S dedication. I told him that he really
needed to keep letting me know how close we were, how much we had left. Step by step, we continued on. The cruel irony of a surprise
hill was not lost on us in that final mile.
13.1 miles. Memorial Stadium. The end. I saw it in the distance, I heard the music, I heard the cheers. It felt surreal.
How could I possibly have walked 26.2 miles over two days? No training. Illness. Daily rest requirements. It seems impossible.
I took a deep breath, and we made our way to the stadium entrance. Our Crew had stayed together every step of the way, for
two days straight. Suddenly we were faced with the final walk. Cheering and clapping, we were surrounded. It was time to
walk through that long corridor of people, all thankful, grateful, celebrating our arrival, along with other walkers.
We grasped hands, and the three of us walked through the cheers. By this time, I was crying. It was overwhelming. I made eye contact
with as many people as I could. At the end, a photographer stepped in front of us, as we raised our hands together in victory.
We took a moment to hug each other, and feel the flood of relief, completion, accomplishment, pride. So many emotions were
swirling through my mind, and yet I still felt stunned. I was still questioning if this really happened. Frank, Kelle, and
Diane are three people who knew what condition I was in before we started this walk. I think they were as shocked as I was.
We picked up our closing t-shirts, made a quick change, and then Diane and Kelle took their bags to the car. We had arrived with time to spare,
and I took some time to sit under the stadium, in the cool shade. The fatigue was hitting me, and I slowly ate and drank, trying to
make sure my body settled slowly. Within fifteen minutes I was feeling much better. We took lots of pictures before the final
ceremony began.
gratitude & pride <--click to view
we made it! <--click to view
the best support system ever <--click to view
victory <--click to view
looking forward to the future <--click to view
Closing lasted about thirty minutes, and then we were on our way.
closing crowd <--click to view
It was now time to go to Bank of America/Carolina Panthers stadium.
This trip would not be complete without seeing the stadium and Sam Mills memorial statue. I'll write about that part of the day
in another entry, with pics. It was a memory I'll never forget. We made the three hour drive home shortly thereafter.
Carolynn's Crew Year Five is now behind us. The Avon Walk For Breast Cancer, Charlotte is complete. We have already discussed many ideas
for next year.
To Frank: You are my world. Without you, this could have never happened. The unending love, support and understanding you give me
are more than I deserve. There is not another person in this world who I could possibly love like I do you.
To Abigail and Hannah: The two of you light my life. When times get tough, your smiles remind me what life is all about. To
see you running toward me, feeling your arms wrap around me...my heart can barely contain the love I have for you both.
To Kelle and Diane: Thank you for making this weekend a possibility. Your understanding of my physical limitations made it
easier for me to make the trip. I knew, without a doubt, that you would be there for me. You care. With no conditions attached. Period.
That's rare...and it's priceless.
To my three special friends who email almost daily: You know who you are. I treasure our friendship. Thank you for your sincerity.
Thank you for being real. My life would be less without you.
To my friends and family, to those that visit this site faithfully: Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for caring enough
to support our efforts. Thank you for helping us take another step, each day, toward a cure. You are making a difference.
Today I am grateful for twenty-six amazing, unbelievable miles.
Thank you God, for another day.
KELLE'S STORY, in her words:
5 YEARS ON THE ROAD
Unless you've ever taken part in a 3-day or 2-day event, it's hard to understand the emotions that rule you while on the road.
So very many emotions from joy to sadness and they are hard to control. You can find yourself smiling or crying at the drop
of a hat. A beeping horn, a hoot of a support, a kind word, a smile… you just never know how you will react.
This year was a triumph unlike any other year. Health concerns and overly busy schedules ruled our lives. Time for training
was sparse or non-existent. When three women in their 40's with little or no training, set out to walk two days in Charlotte
their expectations were low. By the end of the 2 days, they were all pretty amazed at themselves as they had walked every
step, they had walked every bit of the 26.2 miles. Carolynn by far has the most poignant story this year.
She should be feeling like she can conquer the world. I am proud of all three of us, but especially proud of "C". I don't
think we could have celebrated her five years as a breast cancer survivor in any better way. I don't think she ever realized
the strength and the courage that was inside her.
I won't forget Frank and the girls and the joyous WOO-HOO'S that filled the air with almost every step. I won't forget MooCow Guy
and the lift he gave to all of us. The crew at the pit and rest stops were beyond wonderful this year - the YeeHaw's for Ta-Ta's,
Captain Cleavage and Dr. Grabwell and all the rest. I won't forget the people I met or the stories I heard. I won't forget
how grateful I was for a hot shower and a warm sleeping bag. I won't forget how grateful I was for hot coffee in the cold
mornings and for the Starbucks that had free coffee waiting for us walkers on Sunday! I won't forget the beauty of several of
the parks we had the opportunity to walk through and some of the magnificent homes that were along the route. I won't forget
a special visit to see Sam Mills. I won't forget the treasured company of my friends and my second family. And I will never
forget the feeling of walking those last few feet together, the roar of the crowd, our hands linked and held high in victory.
No, I will never forget celebrating five years together.
Carolynn and Diane - thank you for a very special weekend and memories that will last a lifetime.
Here's to Carolynn's Crew Year Five and the future!!!
--Kelle--
DIANE'S STORY, in her words:
On Friday morning I got up filled with excitement. Carolynn, Kelle and myself would be traveling to Charlotte for my third
breast cancer walk. We had some drizzling rain off and on throughout the day, but that wasn't as bad as the delay we had
approximately 30 minutes before arriving to our destination. For some reason the later the day got the more I began to cough
and my voice began to fade.
When we walked into the Westin to register, reality set in. We received our tent assignment, did some shopping, and browsed
around. I began to watch some of the people there and at that point I reminded myself why I was walking. I was walking because
I could, and for those who couldn't.
The evening came to an end and we settled down for the night so we would be ready for the big day. One step at a time, that's
how it has to be done.
After a night of tossing and turning it was finally time to get up and prepare for our journey. We arrived at the Memorial
Stadium with an eagerness to get started on our journey for the day. The air was cool against my face and I danced around
trying to stay warm. I could see the excitement in Kelle and Carolynn's eyes. Frank, Abigail, and Hannah-- you will never
know how you touched my heart for all the support you gave Carolynn and the Crew.
After the opening ceremony, Carolynn's Crew was on our way. We were all concerned about Carolynn and we definitely didn't
want her to over do it. As we walked we chatted about things that had happened in our lives since the last walk and as always
it was nice to spend time with Kelle again. Frank kept up with our route just in case Carolynn needed to be picked up. The
day was filled with fun and laughter. The game of trying to find where Frank and the girls had parked made the miles seem
shorter. The smiles of two little girls from the back seat was another reminder as to why I was walking.
I don't know what I would have done without Frank. The lens fell out of my glasses and he repaired them, I had developed a
terrible cough and he went to WalGreens and bought me medicine. Not only did he go get the medicine, he opened it and poured
it for me. Thank you Frank for all that you did.
After several stops, several bottles of water, a snack here and there, and lunch, we were almost at the end of the day.
Frank always kept us posted on how much farther we had to go and finally we were there. We had made it, 13 miles. WOW,
thirteen miles was a distance I had not even thought about doing since I had an injury from last year. Carolynn surprised us
all. It did my heart good knowing she had walked 13 miles and was still feeling good with the exception of some soreness.
Kelle and I went to the tent, showered and waited for Carolynn to return with her family. A stranger had been assigned to
tent with me, so Kelle invited me to move in with her. The Johnson's arrived. Abigail and Hannah were eager to go see the
tents and visit the campground. After dinner and a short visit with Carolynn we parted until the next day. The three of
us knew we needed rest in order to be able to tackle the next thirteen miles. Kelle and I chatted for a while and then it
was time to call it a night. I slept on and off between coughs. It was a long cold night, but I kept reminding myself why
I was there and then it didn't seem so bad.
Sunday morning has arrived and Carolynn's Crew, Frank and the girls are ready to roll. As the three of us start our final
13 miles, I know that the day could be long. One thing I knew I could count on was in a parking lot, around the corner, or
parked behind a tree or a sign there would be Frank, Abigail, and Hannah waving, smiling, and yelling, "keep it up girls."
We had rain most of the morning, but that certainly didn't dampen our spirits. We were there to walk and that is exactly
what we did. We finally made it, thirteen more miles. As we walked through the cheering crowd my heart began to pound and
my eyes filled with tears. Carolynn, Kelle and I exchanged tears and hugs and at that moment I was reminded why I was there.
I walked because I could. The most amazing thing about the whole trip was with Carolynn's health the way it had been the past
several months, she walked an unplanned marathon. We were shocked, but more proud.
Frank, you were my doctor, my optometrist, and our entertainer on each corner. You are one of a kind.
Abigail and Hannah, you were the best cheerleaders anyone could ask for.
Carolynn and Kelle, thank you my friends for making my third year on Carolynn's Crew a very memorable one.
Looking forward to the future with Carolynn's Crew!
~Diane~
Saturday October 21, 2006
Before I write about today's events, I need to give an update on what decisions I had made just before the walk:
My health had been on the decline for several months, and training for the walk was not an option. As the date approached, I
felt less confident in my abilities. There were times I was housebound, and times that the short walk to the Church would leave me
breathless and lightheaded. Most of the time I chose to drive there. When I came down with strep, I felt like it was the final straw. I honestly doubted I would walk
more than half of a mile, but I did want to at least start the day with Kelle and Diane, our crew intact. I had spoken to both of them and had their total support.
Although year five was a celebration and milestone, I knew that it wasn't a time to test my body's limits.
I spoke with Frank at length. He knew I was not ready for the travel and walk, and it would take a toll on me. I asked him to shadow
me, so that I would have the security of knowing I could be picked up from the route at any moment, without having to be swept
by a van and perhaps forced to wait at various holding areas. He and the girls would stay in the area, and I could call him to come
and get me. I would then be able to go rest and meet Kelle and Diane later in camp for a visit. He would also carry foods that were safe for me to eat, to try and
avoid having problems with my stomach flaring up at the worst time possible. At that point, I thought I might be able
to walk a mile, or less.
We were up early, and made our way to Memorial Stadium. I ate a bowl of fiber one before leaving, and grabbed a banana when we arrived.
The temps were in the forties and the rest of the Crew, along with Frank and the girls, eagerly went for the coffee and hot chocolate.
As we waited, the cold was almost unbearable, and I shifted back and forth to try and stay warm. Diane gave me a hand warmer
and I shoved my hands deep in my jacket pockets. We took several pictures, and I was proud to see Frank, Abigail, and Hannah wearing their
shirts of support and all smiles so early in the morning.
early morning crew <--click to view
loyal supporters, Frank Abigail and Hannah <--click to view
signing the tower, Daddy helps Hannah <--click to view
The Avon Walk actually consists of two events in one. You can choose to walk a marathon, by walking 13 miles each day, or walking
a marathon and a half by walking 26 miles on day one and 13 on day two. (Or you can choose somewhere in between) Avon stresses
that distance isn't what counts, and to only walk the distance you are comfortable with completing. We had all decided going in
that we were doing the marathon event.
We picked up the route sheet for the day, and discovered the first stop was 1.8 miles away. I told everyone that was with me that
it was unlikely I could make that distance, but I would at least start. The opening ceremony began, and it was as emotional this
year as it has been every year before. We left the stadium and it was barely light outside. We walked at an easy pace, and I found myself
focused on how cold I was feeling, making sure I kept moving my shoulders to keep myself from tensing up from the cold. Before long,
I realized that we were approaching the first rest stop. I had just walked 1.8 miles, and I was not fatigued. I could not believe I had
made it that far. While other walkers were just getting started for the day, I was in utter shock that I made it to the first stop. I
continued to have a blank look on my face as I glanced at my teammates. They were as shocked as I was. Frank was right there
in the car, and asked how I was feeling. I smiled at him, "Fine so far!" He gave me a thumbs up and a smile that made it clear
he was proud of me. I decided to walk farther. I was not out of breath, and everything seemed to be going fine.
Stop number two was at 3.6 miles. I MADE IT.
5.0 miles. I MADE IT.
7.2 miles. I MADE IT.
9.1 miles. I MADE IT.
This was the lunch stop. The temperature was up, it was wonderful walking weather, and we were on the same pace as those choosing to walk the entire marathon distance today.
We were way ahead of cut-off times for walking the thirteen mile route. By this point my hips were aching some, but I fully
expected that. They bother me if I travel far by car, so walking over nine miles would cause a bit of discomfort. I was not
in extreme pain by no stretch. Frank and the girls joined us for lunch, and it was a nice break. Everyone asked how I felt,
and wanted to make sure I didn't push too far. Had I thought I was doing that, I would stop. I told them, in all honesty,
that I actually felt pretty good. I sat through lunch trying to figure out how I walked that distance, when I was so
far down physically just days and weeks before.
While at lunch, we saw a familiar face...MooCow Guy. He is quite a celebrity
among the Avon walks, where he shows up dressed as a cow and telling cow jokes. He's a wonderful inspiration and I've never seen him without a smile on his face. I took Hannah to meet
him and told him my story and how she was a miracle. I asked if we could get a picture of Hannah with him, and he replied to her "No, can I
get a picture with you?"
lunch break <--click to view
Hannah with MooCow Guy <--click to view
Lunch was over and I still felt well enough to keep walking.
Frank was my hero today. He literally followed the route step by step. I expected him to drive some and stay close in the area, but he went above and
beyond. He would drive a few blocks, park, and wait. When we appeared he would check on me, he would cheer for us, he would drive
ahead and do it again. At times we would wave and smile, and other times I would walk to the car to see him and the girls (Abigail and Hannah
also had dvd players to occupy them). It gave me confidence, and we ended up making it a game. The three of us would try to spot him before he saw
us. He continued to ask how I was feeling and beamed with pride. I was proud of him. I was proud that it was my husband who the other
walkers were seeing at every place possible.
11.2 miles. I MADE IT.
I was now 1.8 miles from actually FINISHING the route. I was starting to feel tired, but my heart rate was good and I believed it was safe to keep going.
Step by step we walked. By this point Frank would drive by and tell me how much was left. The last half mile was the longest of the day.
13.0 miles. I MADE IT.
With hugs and tears all around, the day was done. I am still almost numb to the fact that I did it. I think this must be a dream, but
it isn't. I had prayed that I would make the trip safely, and maybe, just maybe, walk a mile. Somehow, my body kept moving, and I made it
to the end.
we did it! together! <--click to view
he got me through <--click to view
and they make it all worth while <--click to view
By this point, the fatigue was setting in. Kelle and Diane went to the Wellness Village, and Frank took me back to rest. I laid down
for a while, and then we went to the Village to see the Crew. We hung out with them while they ate dinner, and the girls had fun looking at the tents, displays, and freebies.
It had been a long day and Frank, the girls and I left to get some sleep. I decided not to commit to anything for tomorrow. I don't want to jeopardize my
ability to attend closing ceremonies, and my body has already given more than I could have ever dreamed for. I decided to see how the night
goes and make a decision tomorrow morning.
the crew at camp <--click to view
girls with balloon pink ribbon <--click to view
Abigail with her goodies <--click to view
Hannah is goofy <--click to view
girls try out the tent <--click to view
Today I am grateful for thirteen amazing, unbelievable miles.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday October 20, 2006
The forecast still looks good, and no (or very low) chance of rain. It looks like the nights will be cool, but day time temperatures
should be ideal for walking, at least after the first couple hours.
Kelle, Diane and I left Tazewell at 11am. We planned to arrive in Charlotte early enough to go by the Panthers Stadium before
registration. We were within thirty miles of Charlotte when traffic slowed to a standstill. Apparently there was an accident and we
sat in the same spot, without moving, for an hour and a half. Thankfully we had just stopped for lunch.
We decided we could visit the stadium on Sunday evening, and went straight to registration. The elevators opened, we entered the building,
and at that moment the walk became very real. Pink signs, balloons and excited voices met us at every turn. The buzz was contagious.
Since we had all completed online registration, received medical clearance, and met fundraising goals, we were able to go through express
check-in. I had already decided it would be in my best interest not to tent this year, but took an assigned place with Kelle to
hold the spot. Diane was given a location near us, and if she was not assigned a tentmate, both of them could be comfortable
in their own tent. If Diane did end up with a partner, she could then move up and tent with Kelle. The whole process took
about thirty minutes.
With registration and tent assignments complete, we headed to the Avon Walk Store. We already had team t-shirts for Friday, and decided
to buy a navy ringer t-shirt to wear on Sunday.
The three of us left the main room and made our way to tables set up by various walkers. I was looking for a pink Christmas tree--
because then I would find Marie. Who is Marie? She is a nurse from Asheville, NC and we met several months ago through email, and have stayed in contact.
Along with her daughter and friends, they formed the team "Sole Sisters". This was their first walk, and I was eager to meet the kind
woman I had corresponded with for so long. As I turned around, I spotted the tree Marie had told me about, and went straight over. I
made eye contact with a lovely lady wearing a team t-shirt. I said "I'm looking for Marie", and a smile lit her face as she said "Carolynn!"
I also met her beautiful daughter. Marie, you are a treasure, and I am honored to have met you.
Marie <--click to view
Marie, her daughter Amanda, and that wonderful pink tree! <--click to view
Frank and the girls made it to Charlotte safely this evening, and we took a drive to Memorial Stadium to get our bearings for tomorrow morning.
We need to be there around 5:45am.
Today I am grateful for Marie's smile.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday October 19, 2006
Kelle has arrived safely, and the girls have enjoyed spending the evening with her. Tomorrow the Crew will be on the road, and Frank and the
girls will come down tomorrow evening.
Today I am grateful for halloween goodies given to my girls, celebrated with great excitement.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday October 18, 2006
"We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially.
We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward,
forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations."
Kelle arrives tomorrow, and we will all travel to Charlotte on Friday.
Current forecast for the walk:
Sat. Oct 21 Mostly Sunny 68°/46° 10% chance of rain
Sun. Oct 22 Partly Cloudy 70°/48° 20% chance of rain
Today I am grateful for a very special blue shirt, tucked safely in a plastic bag.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday October 17, 2006
Kudos to Dove and the Dove Self-Esteem Fund.
All this talk about fashion models and extreme dieting. How did our idea of beauty become so distorted?
Every girl deserves to feel beautiful just the way she is.
View the latest commercial here.
Get involved at Campaign For Real Beauty.
What we see in print and on television is not real. Celebrity photos are not accurate representations of what these women look
like in reality. And when a size 4 or 6 is considered "too large", and actresses are dropping below 100 pounds, something is very wrong.
Today I am grateful for family.
Thank you God, for another day.
Trivia: Just before 8am EST this morning, the United States population hit 300,000,000!
Monday October 16, 2006
"The future comes one day at a time."
The forecast is looking pretty good for the walk this weekend. Highs in the upper 60's, with a small chance of
showers. Having experienced the extremes of frozen wet hair, ice on the tent, or sweltering heat in the past few
years, this is ideal. IF the forecast holds true, and only time will tell on that one.
Today I am grateful for cell phones.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday October 15, 2006
Abigail and her team, The Mutiny, played their first U10 soccer game this afternoon. By coincidence, she is also number 27, like her sister!
Thankfully the weather was a bit warmer. They played well, and won their game.
ready to get started!
game time
winners!
Today I am grateful for our Pastor, and proud that he is my father.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday October 14, 2006
"Victory is in the quality of competition, not the final score."
We woke to a heavy frost and a soccer game scheduled for 10:00am. The air was bitter, and the kids were layered up.
Hannah is number 27 and today the Smurfs played the Pirates. Oh, the irony of THAT match-up. I'm glad the U6 league
doesn't keep score. They had a great time, and at this age, fun matters. I'm not a fan of sports parents who yell negativity
to their children from the sidelines.
let's get started!
game time
the team with Coach William
Hannah-ism: I was getting ready to say something to Hannah, and she anticipated what I was going to say beforehand.
Hannah: "Do you know how I already knew what you were going to say?"
Me: "No, how?"
Hannah: "Because my brain is excellent at thinking!"
Today I am grateful for a completed furniture project.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday October 13, 2006
"There is more than a verbal tie between the words common, community, and communication.... Try the experiment of communicating,
with fullness and accuracy, some experience to another, especially if it be somewhat complicated, and you will find your own
attitude toward your experience changing."
It's All Abigail: Nothing makes Abigail happier than making crafts, creating art, and working with paper. Here's
her adventure with marketing! These signs started in the living room and led to her bedroom door.
directions to the store
inviting ad
bargains
welcome
Today I am grateful for creative minds.
Thank you God, for another day.
CORPORATE FUNDRAISER NEWS: Project Pink, Munchkin
Munchkin is supporting Moms in their fight against breast cancer with the launch of Project Pink, a program that includes sharing tips
and stories for Moms battling the disease while raising children, the opportunity to buy a limited edition pink duck, and the
chance to win a family vacation to Los Angeles.
To raise even more awareness (and money!) to fight breast cancer, Munchkin asked celebrities to decorate ducks to be listed
in a charity auction on eBay. The response from celebrities has been great. Famous personalities from all walks of life -
politics, TV, movies, music and more - offered to lend their names and artistic skills to this worthwhile cause by decorating
and autographing a pink duck.
The celebrity-decorated pink ducks are available for bid on eBay during Breast Cancer Awareness Month from October 1 until
October 31, 2006. 100% of the proceeds from the auction of celebrity-decorated ducks will benefit the Susan G. Komen Breast Cancer
Foundation.
Project Pink
Thursday October 12, 2006
"Touch a thistle timidly, and it pricks you; grasp it boldly, and its spines crumble."
Today I am grateful for smiles and straight A's.
Thank you God, for another day.
MEDICAL NEWS: I've written about this before, but it bears repeating. This is not your "typical" breast cancer!
Inflammatory breast cancer is a rare but very aggressive type of breast cancer. IBC usually grows rapidly and often spreads
to other parts of the body; symptoms include redness, swelling, and warmth in the breast. The skin may also appear reddish
purple or bruised, or have ridges or appear pitted like an orange. Other symptoms can include burning, aching, an increase in
breast size, tenderness or an inverted nipple. Treatment for IBC usually starts with chemotherapy, which is generally followed
by color surgery, radiation, targeted therapy, and/or hormone therapy.
Please use the link below to view more information, including videos:
Inflammatory Breast Cancer (IBC)
Wednesday October 11, 2006
Meet Tristan.
He is nine years old, and the youngest child of my friend, and Carolynn's Crew Germany Team Captain, Alex. He walked with his family
in the Frankfurt Race for the Cure. Tristan had a heart catheterization last week, where it was determined that the right side of his heart is four times larger than normal.
There is a hole in his heart and one vein to his lungs is going backwards, making his heart work much harder than it should.
In November, he will have surgery. Please pray for Tristan, Alex and her entire family, that the doctors will be successful,
and Tristan will fully recover.
Today I am grateful for prayer.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday October 10, 2006
a brighter smile
a brighter laugh
a brighter hug
a brighter kiss
a brighter wish
a brighter dance
a brighter dream
a brighter morning
a brighter Monday
a brighter embrace
a brighter whisper
a brighter poem
a brighter purpose
a brighter giggle
a brighter snuggle
a brighter song
a brighter you
Here's to a bright symbol of hope.
Thank you Target, proud supporter of The
Breast Cancer Research Foundation. BCRF donates over 85% of all funds raised for breast cancer research
grants and awareness programs. Through their passion and your support, we will find a cure for breast cancer.
Today I am grateful for music.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday October 9, 2006
After my doctor's visit today, I am now confirmed with strep throat as well. Frank appears to have it also, and has an appointment tomorrow.
With the Avon Walk less than two weeks away, this is not the best timing for us all to be sick and on meds for ten days. I am
concerned about what the antibiotic will do to my already "compromised" digestive system. On a positive note, I'm glad we
all have this together. At least we won't pass it back and forth---lasting for weeks.
Soccer season has finally started! We are a month late for unknown reasons, and tonight was Hannah's first practice. It's going to be a chilly
season for them now. This year she is playing for the "Smurfs". That's a new team name around here, but she seems to like it! Thankfully, she was healthy
enough to go, and Abigail has a few more days before her practice begins.
eager to get started
action in the goal
Today I am grateful for a five year old proudly demonstrating her soccer skills in the living room.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday October 8, 2006
"Only one thing has to change for us to know happiness in our lives: where we focus our attention."
Both girls went to the pediatrician this afternoon. Abigail has strep throat and is now on an antibiotic. No school for her
tomorrow. Hannah has a bad cold. He gave her a lower dose antibiotic anyway, to prevent her from picking up strep from her
sister. By this afternoon, my throat is blistered, so I'll head to the doctor myself tomorrow. At least we have it at the
same time, and can get better rather than pass it back and forth.
Today I am grateful for Dr. Thomson.
Thank you God, for another day.
i love pink
especially in nature
Saturday October 7, 2006
Two weeks from today, our Crew will be walking in the Charlotte Avon Walk for Breast Cancer! It's hard to believe the time
has passed so quickly!
It's fall, school is in, and illness is back. Abigail has had a headache and fever since Thursday, Hannah is starting with congestion
and a cough, and I have a cold and sore throat. Thankfully, Frank has escaped the germs.
Today I am grateful for children's motrin.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday October 6, 2006
It's Lee Denim Day! Join Lee Jeans, EIF (Entertainment Industry Foundation Initiatives, Women's Cancer Programs) and Pierce Brosnan in the fight against breast cancer by wearing denim today.
Your $5 contribution will benefit local breast cancer prevention services, as well as groundbreaking early detection and
treatment research at leading cancer centers nationwide.
www.denimday.com
"Sometimes life is a pleasure to be savored, not a problem to be solved."
Hannah-ism:
Hannah: "Mommy, I love you all the way to the universe and the numbers!"
Me: "Wow, that's a lot!"
Hannah: "That's because the universe never ends and numbers never end! That's farther than the moon!"
Today I am grateful for playing a game of chase with Frank.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday October 5, 2006
"Your life becomes the thing you have decided it shall be."
Today my name is among a list of breast cancer survivors being shown in Times Square throughout the month of October!
Thanks Mom, for doing that for me!!
Today I am grateful for freshly planted mums.
Thank you God, for another day.
ACTION ALERT:
From Diane Balma, Director of Public Policy- The Susan G. Komen Breast Cancer Foundation
Fall colors are typically reds, browns and oranges. But for October, we're going pink. It's National Breast Cancer Awareness
Month - and there's no one with whom we would rather commemorate than you! This is a time for us to reflect on the progress
we have made in the fight against breast cancer but it is also a time for us to continue to make our voice heard so that one
day we will know a world without breast cancer.
Let's start today! Unless concerned citizens like you speak out, we could see drastic cuts to Medicare reimbursement rates,
limiting women's access to quality health care at the very point in their lives when they are at the greatest risk of developing
breast cancer.
We cannot afford to lose ground when we have come this far. As a Champion, you are integral to our efforts and we need your
help!
Send a message to your representatives in Congress – Medicare cuts must be repealed!
If Medicare reimbursement rates are reduced as planned, on January 1st many of the physicians on the front lines of breast
cancer diagnosis and treatment - from oncologists to pathologists, from radiologists to surgeons - will be forced to cut back
on their services for the aging population.
This is particularly troubling because 42% of all patients diagnosed with breast cancer are age 65 or older. More than half
of all breast cancer-related deaths occur in this same age group. We must demand that Medicare patients with breast cancer
receive the best care available.
Urge your elected representatives to protect women's access to quality health care.
Please help us ensure that on January 1, breast cancer patients of all ages, and the people who love them, can look forward
to a happy, healthy New Year.
Wednesday October 4, 2006
This was part of the gift from my parents on Sunday:
God Heals.
Remember when you heard the words-
And your mind went blank for a moment
God Heals.
Remember in your darkest hours-
When pain and sickness surrounded you
God Heals.
Remember friends and families prayers
And encouragement
God Heals.
Quiet- you can hear Him now-
Always there- yet never this close
God Heals.
It's now 5 years since-
Everything has changed
And you hear yourself say
God Heals.
We remember that life is a gift-
Each day to treasure.
God Heals.
Today I am grateful for Johnny Appleseed.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday October 3, 2006
"Fear of failure and fear of the unknown are always defeated by faith. Having faith in yourself, in the process of change, and in
the new direction that change sets will reveal your own inner core of steel."
Today I am grateful for candles.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday October 2, 2006
Thank you for the gifts, cards, and e-cards to celebrate yesterday's milestone. For those that signed the guestbook, I
appreciate your kind words! If you haven't signed, feel free to stop by !
It's All Abigail: Overheard in the kitchen this morning: ("Golday" is what they call my mother)
Hannah: "I'm going to wear a bra like Golday."
Abigail: "All girls do, Hannah."
Hannah: "Mommy doesn't wear one."
Abigail: "I know. That's because she had breast cancer."
There was a brief pause, then this very serious reply-
Abigail: "But even if they've been taken off, you can wear a bra if you still want to. You just put these
jelly-like things inside there to fill it up."
The girls dug up their gardens today, pulling out weeds and remaining plants. They dug extra deep holes, and look what I found planted this afternoon!
Hannah, feeling cozy
Abigail, with braids she did herself
Today I am grateful for girls who aren't afraid of dirt.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday October 1, 2006
Today, I have been in remission for five years.
I have many different emotions about this day. I have beaten the odds. I have survived longer than most of the women who
were in my same position five years ago.
I have been truly blessed.
Many people think we are considered "cured" if we survive this milestone. In reality, our odds of recurrence are reduced,
but we aren't cured. There still isn't a cure for cancer. One day, but not yet. That's why we must keep fighting.
The last five years have been a roller coaster ride.
There were times I felt strong, and I was proud. There were times I felt weak, and wondered if I would ever be the same again.
There are survivors who have fully recovered and suffer no ill effects. In my unique situation, that was not to be for me. What I've come to learn, and still continue to learn to this day, is this---I will never be the same.
In many ways, cancer has made me a better person. I am certainly more aware of my own mortality. As each day passes, I
am still aware of the breeze, the sun kissing my face, the gratitude of survival. I realize that some battles aren't worth
fighting, and try to focus on what will count when we reach the end of our time on earth.
I did underestimate the long term effects of high dose chemotherapy and subsequent illnesses. Sometimes I have to make
a mental "list" of what I have experienced after my treatment ended. It helps me accept, rationalize, even understand
why it's okay that I must now carefully plan my days. I have to make sure I am always in a situation that allows me an escape if
I become too tired. My body doesn't give me a lot of notice before a crash.
What I know for sure--I wouldn't go back and change my life. I am alive. I delivered a healthy baby girl who is now five years
old. I have an eight year old who makes me proud every day. I have a husband who loves me deeply. My parents live right beside
of me. I have a small circle of friends that support me in all that I do. I am happy that I have self imposed limitations on whom
I choose to spend time with. Time is to be spent enjoying life, not fighting through it. Life is too precious to be wasted.
I have been saving Hannah's special pink ribbon quilt to personalize for her today.
stitching our special date
Hannah looks at the embroidery
back of quilt
Pathways to Peace---
"Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called the children of God." - Matthew 5:9
Integrity---
"Integrity is one of several paths. It distinguishes itself from the others because it is the right path and the only one
upon which you will never get lost." - M.H. McKee
Joy---
"If the sight of the blue skies fills you with joy, if the simple things of nature have a message that you understand, rejoice,
for your soul is alive." - Eleonora Duse
Kindness---
"Kindness is the language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see." - Mark Twain
Faith---
"Faith is the strength by which a shattered world shall emerge into the light." - Helen Keller
Courage---
"This is courage… to bear unflinchingly what heaven sends." - Euripedes
Hope---
"Hope is faith holding out its hand in the dark." - George Iles
Charity---
"We must not only give what we have; we must also give what we are." - Desire-Joseph Mercier
Love---
"I have found the paradox that if I love until it hurts, then there is no hurt, but only more love." - Mother Teresa
Patience---
"Never think that God's delays are God's denials. Hold on, Hold fast, Hold out. Patience is genius." - Comte Georges Louis Leclerc de Buffon
Determination---
"The great thing in this world is not so much where we are, but in what direction we are moving." - Oliver Wendell Holmes
Gratitude---
"A single grateful thought raised to heaven is the most perfect prayer." - Gotthold Ephraim Lessing
Humility---
"Pride is concerned with who is right. Humility is concerned with what is right." - Ezra Taft Benson
Forgiveness---
"Forgiveness is the answer to the child's dream of a miracle by which what is broken is made whole again, what is soiled is
again made clean." - Dag Hammarskjold
Peace---
"We must come to see that peace is not merely a distant goal we seek, but it is a means by which we arrive at that goal.
We must pursue peaceful ends through peaceful means." - Martin Luther King, Jr.
Pathways to Peace
Today I am grateful for God's love and gift of life, both of which I am not worthy.
Thank you God, for five years.
Thank you God, for another day.
Saturday September 30, 2006
OCTOBER IS BREAST CANCER AWARENESS MONTH!
This is a list of the Young Survival Coalition Retail Partners.
As with yesterdays Komen list, please take a moment to click here
for more details, including product and purchase information, prices, company links, and donation specifics. YOU can help contribute to the cause, just by making many of your regular
household purchases, or using these as gift suggestions.
YOUNG SURVIVAL COALITION RETAIL PARTNERS:
The Hershey Company’s Pledge For Survival
Nutra Nail
Farleyco
Mikimoto
Candy Favorites
Snapfish.com
Loehmann’s
Stirrings
Robyn Rhodes
Papique
Alexandra Knight
Denim for Immortality
1154 Lill Studio
Napa Girl
ghd
Kansas City Chiefs
Today I am grateful for companies who care.
Thank you God, for another day.
Friday September 29, 2006
OCTOBER IS BREAST CANCER AWARENESS MONTH!
This is a list of the Komen Corporate Partnerships.
Please take a moment to click here
for more details on this list, including product and purchase information, prices, company links, and specifics on what amount (or percentage) of money
will be donated. It's amazing how much YOU can help contribute to the cause, just by purchasing many of your regular household needs, or using
these as gift suggestions.
KOMEN CORPORATE PARTNERS:
Komen Race for the Cure®
2006 Komen Sing for the Cure®
A&A Optical
Aldila, Inc.
All Sport Brush
American Beauty Supply, Inc.
Belk
Better Homes & Gardens
BMW of North America – The Ultimate Drive®
Boeri USA
Breeder’s Choice
C&F Enterprises
Carlisle Collection – Fabric of Hope
CHI-CHI’S® Salsa
Coldwater Creek®
Crest Uniforms, a division of ARAMARK Uniform & Career Apparel, Inc.
Cross Pens
Crown Street Collectibles
Curvation
Dell™
Deluxe Checks – Checks for the Cure®
Dirt Devil Pink Broom Vac®
Dutch Gardens
Eastman Kodak
eBags.com
Einstein Bros.®
Energizer®
Felt Bicycles
Fiskars
Ford Division
Francesca’s
Fresh Express
Garden Fresh Restaurant Corporation
George Weston Bakeries
Glove It, LLC
GUESS
Hallmark
Holland America Line
Hunter Boots
Igloo®
Jacques Gourmet, LLC
JASON Natural Products
Kellogg Company
KitchenAid® - Cook for the Cure®
Kyocera
La Bella Donna
Lean Cuisine®
L’Occitane
Love Cures
Lowe’s Companies, Inc.
LPGA Golf Clinics
M&M’S® Brand Chocolate Candies
Magaschoni
Mark Feldstein & Associates, Inc.
Mattel
Michael Vincent
Middleton Doll
Munchkin
Napa Valley Naturals
Nature’s Finest Candles
Neenah Paper
New Balance Athletic Shoe, Inc.
Nonni’s® Food Company
Nordstrom, Inc.
Oilily USA
Orawave
Oreck Corporation
Payless ShoeSource
Pendleton Woolen Mills
Pepperidge Farm®
PepsiAmericas
Physi-Cal
Pier 1 Imports® – Komen Candle
Planet Dog – Pink Ribbon Ringo and Pink Ribbon Buddy
Pretty Feet and Hands
Proflowers.com – Pink Ribbon Collection
Quilted Northern Ultra®
Qwest® and SANYO®
Rado
Rally for a Cure®
Reed & Barton
The Republic of Tea
Retro 1951, Inc.
Rugged Shark
Sage Manufacturing - Rod for Recovery
Seagate Technology
Sears Portrait Studio
Serta – Counting Sheep for the Cure™
Shoebuy.com
Siemens Medical Solutions
Simon Malls
Smart Health, Inc.
Smith and Hawken
Springs Global
Starbucks Corporation
SunChips®
Super Pet
Sylvania
The Zanger Company
Tomboy Tools®
United States Bowling Congress
Urban Outfitters, Inc.
Vivre, Inc.
Wacoal America
WorldWinner®
Wrangler
Wyeth/ChapStick Brand Lip Moisturizer
Wyndham Hotels and Resorts
XM Satellite Radio, Pioneer and Circuit City
Yoplait USA
Yves Rocher North America, Inc.
Today I am grateful for corporate support.
Thank you God, for another day.
Thursday September 28, 2006
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
Today I am grateful for a beautiful card in the mailbox.
Thank you God, for another day.
Wednesday September 27, 2006
This is the (translated) summary for the German Race for the Cure:
Race for the Cure® in Frankfurt/Main was a sensational success Bad Homburg, 25 September 2006.
The Race of yesterday for the Cure®, run for the healing of breastcancer, on the Main bank in Frankfurt was a full success:
With altogether 4,768 runners, which run themselves in accordance with the slogan "for the life" gladly took part, the previous
year result was increased by 3.841 participants by 24,13 per cent, among them were 472 Survivors, cancer of the breast-concerned.
The picture book weather led to approximately 400 spontaneous daily registrations. Of it 1,756 participants selected the two
kilometers long Walk. 3,012 Jogger, aforementioned of the KOMEN ambassadors Heike Drechsler and Nicole Leder as well as Edgar Itt,
former olympia winner, decided for the five kilometers long run around the Main. City Major Petra Roth, those gave the starting
signal spontaneously decided itself in the next year, on 30 September 2007, together with the HR-Wetterfee and host of the
Race for the Cure®, Laura DiSalvo, to take part in the run actively. The three largest teams of the run of this year were
pc. Leonhard' s Spirited Feet (175 members) from Frankfurt/Main, GE Volunteers from Isenburg (with 100 participants) and
Frankfurt internationally School (97 members). The pro mamma team from Hamm Westphalia was the team with most Survivors
within the group of runs. Also the Row for the Cure registered a record participation with 200 participants distributed on
30 boats. The rowers were multicolored mixed thereby - men such as women between 13 and 71 years put before a fantastic window
blind into the belts. The next Race for the Cure takes place on 30 September 2007 in Frankfurt/Main. Supervisor of the Race
for the Cure® in Frankfurt/Main is KOMEN Germany registered association, the association for the healing of cancer of the
breast. Already to the sieved mark in consequence the charity run moved the topic cancer of the breast into the consciousness
of the public.
Thank you Alex!
Today I am grateful for pampering from two little girls, including a foot rub and multiple tiny pigtails.
Thank you God, for another day.
Tuesday September 26, 2006
"Before you act, consider; when you have considered, 'tis fully time to act."
"The definition of courage is not the absence of fear, but rather feeling the fear and walking through it anyway."
Hannah-ism: Today, Hannah brought home a picture she had drawn of our family.
Me: "That's a pretty picture."
Hannah: "Ms. Patsy said to draw something that made us happy"
Me: "Oh, Hannah, that is so nice that you chose to draw us!"
Hannah: "Yeah, anyway...I couldn't draw a picture of the playground."
Me, laughing: "Oh, I see."
Today I am grateful for clarity.
Thank you God, for another day.
Monday September 25, 2006
Meet our German Crew !
What a wonderful show of love and support between family and friends. And Alex is already building a network for next year
as well!!
click here to view 2006 Frankfurt Germany Walk Pics
Today I am grateful for genuine, selfless commitment.
Thank you God, for another day.
Sunday September 24, 2006
CAROLYNN'S CREW GERMANY (FRANKFURT RACE FOR THE CURE) WALKED TODAY!
Way to go Alex and team!
I should have pictures tomorrow!!
"I had rather be shut up in a very modest cottage, with my books, my family, and a few old friends, dining on
simple bacon, and letting the world roll on as it liked, than to occupy the most splendid post, which any human power
can give."
Today I am grateful for the ability to read.
Thank you God, for another day.
See the Pink Hershey Kiss here.
More pink product info to come!
Saturday September 23, 2006
Welcome FALL !!
My favorite season!
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